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WornOutLife
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- Mar 22, 2020
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So, here it is! My last Christmas has come. I plan to CTB next year. Don't know when exactly but I guess I'll only cope with this world a few more months.
It feels strange. This is my 32nd Christmas and and there won't be a 33rd.
Anyway, Christmas is not that special anymore for me; have lots of family problems, suicide is on my mind 24/7, depression, bipolarity, I'm being monitored 24/7 (well not really, I get some freedom now, after my failed attempt).
I'll just try to have some fun with my parents and my lovely dog.
What about you? Is this going to be your last Christmas too? How do you feel? I think some people will CTB today. I'd rather choose another day.
It feels strange. This is my 32nd Christmas and and there won't be a 33rd.
Anyway, Christmas is not that special anymore for me; have lots of family problems, suicide is on my mind 24/7, depression, bipolarity, I'm being monitored 24/7 (well not really, I get some freedom now, after my failed attempt).
I'll just try to have some fun with my parents and my lovely dog.
What about you? Is this going to be your last Christmas too? How do you feel? I think some people will CTB today. I'd rather choose another day.