Venting Mental state Deteriorating

[Nephis]

The last 3 days has been a slow down downhill trend of my mental state as of right now near everything feels empty almost like a dream or a nightmare everything feels like it's not real something that I just keep feeling and has been really the only thing I feel is emotional emptiness and because of that I'm trapped inside my own head going through all the possible ways I could die I keep wondering of what I should do the next day will I crack under pressure and find myself on top of a building? Or will I be able to hold out and have a painless and or quick plan in place to die it has been driving me insane.

Sorry for the run on sentence.
Also sorry if what I say is really hard to understand it's really hard to think right now

 

[AnonymouslyBlue]

Don't apologize for how you write your emotions, it doesn't need to make sense to everyone, only you.

It's hard to be where you are, especially considering that every moment of every day seems like it won't get better. It's a feeling that I've carried for a while, that chaotic blur of emotions that spew out sometimes and never make sense and while I'm not saying that it will get easier - there are ways to manage it.

Like coming here, expressing your emotions and finding an outlet. Letting others who familiarize with your emotions find you and letting you know that you're not alone, no matter how messy your emotions feel.

You should be proud of yourself to coming forward and saying how you feel, the real raw and true feelings that you're going through. That takes guts, and maybe, just maybe that is something to hold onto?

 

[Asta]

Everyone is here for you, Noiseless. Please try to hold out, as you say, and if you have questions about anything, don't hesitate to ask.

 

[Nephis]

Everyone is here for you, Noiseless. Please try to hold out, as you say, and if you have questions about anything, don't hesitate to ask.

Thank you all I'm still trying to hold on and wait and thanks Asta, the people on this site have helped me alot even if I will CTB I won't forget your help mentally or otherwise!

 

[JimFord99]

Thank you all I'm still trying to hold on and wait and thanks Asta, the people on this site have helped me alot even if I will CTB I won't forget your help mentally or otherwise!

Yeah, Asta is one of the strongholds off this forum, helped me a lot. Just don't make any irrational decisions out of an impulsive drive.

 

[Nephis]

Yeah, Asta is one of the strongholds off this forum, helped me a lot. Just don't make any irrational decisions out of an impulsive drive.

Thanks and yeah I've had those issues before I'll try to keep myself from going overboard I made up my mind anyway to make a goodbye thread on the day I'm ready to go.

 

[JimFord99]

Thanks and yeah I've had those issues before I'll try to keep myself from going overboard I made up my mind anyway to make a goodbye thread on the day I'm ready to go.

Good.