Anyone in these forums that has decided to CTB consider themselves free from mental Illness? Living the so called "normal life" but just want to end it all?
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Mental illness is thrown around too readily by docs these days too. It's easier than saying they don't know what's wrong with you. You only have to be sad to be diagnosed with mental health problems. It's got to the point that you can't show natural human emotion in front of gp's and even some specialist in the Uk these days. What's worse is that once that gp writes it on your record it gets picked up along the chain of command so to speak. You can be happy as larry in front of the next person you see and find yourself fighting a diagnosis of manic depression or bipolar. The easiest drug to get prescribed is antidepressants and it making regular normal functioning humans second guess their mental health. It's self fulfilling and the pharma companies love it.
Bit of a personal peave lol.Last edited:Well written response and right on the money. Thank you for sharing.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 46,849
I think that in many cases, being depressed can be perfectly rational for somebody's life circumstances, so therefore they are not mentally ill. This is the case for me. I wouldn't say I have a 'normal life' though. The reason why I want to ctb, is that I just dislike everything about living and I have come to the conclusion that life is not worth living.Exactly! You put it perfectly..... it is a natural response to outside stimuli/circumstance. A natural human response does not need clinical intervention at the very first hurdle. I don't discount the potential for treatment in many cases but I'd guess that somewhere in the region of â…“ of people in treatment for menral health are either incorrectly diagnosed, in no need of medical/chemical intervention and being harmed infinitely more than they're being helped. There is not a very well focused approach to treatment. It's a suck it and see approach which is so irresponsible and leaves people with bigger peoblems than they had to start with and even worse, no way of fixing it. The medical community in league with pharma have a LOT to answer for.
I will say though that as somebody in my personal position (health issue over crap life circumstances) find myself jealous of your situation as you have at least a grain of hope for 'recovery'. I don't know your personal situation and I say this all without judgement. I hope you know I say with honesty and believe me when I say that. I'm not a 'pro lifer' lol. I just feel bad and sorry for somebody with their health feeling such despair that they're ready to leave life behind. I suppose the grass is always greener though right? It's easy for me to be jealous when I'm mourning my health and the potential I had in life even as a bit of a social hermit and self confessed disdain for humanity in its current state.
My pm box is always open to you @FuneralCry :)Last edited:
sensation86
Member
- Apr 13, 2023
- 49
Yes, in my case the main reason that has led me to consider suicide is my continuous fight against depression and anxiety.
I was an unwanted baby and grew up in a dysfunctional family.
At the age of 12 I developed tourette syndrome and obsessive compulsive disorder due to the enormous stress in my environment.
I suffered continuous bullying at school because my classmates saw me as a freak due to my disorders.
At the age of 19 I had my first panic attacks of extreme intensity.
Due to all these problems I was unable to enter the university despite my good grades since by then I had already developed an intense social phobia.
As I entered adulthood I had some calm moments which I destroyed myself when I embarked on a self-destructive spiral abusing alcohol and drugs.
Today I am a completely broken 46 year old adult, I have developed a strong addiction to benzodiazepines and I basically can't go on with this life anymore.
So, answering your question, I would say yes, the main reason that makes me consider committing suicide is my mental and emotional problems added to family, personal and economic problems.
Basically my life is a life gone wrong and I'm reaching levels of despair I've never had before.
I am running out of options and I feel and know that I can no longer continue in this way.
This is only my second post so please forgive me if I make any mistakes.
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