Mental health

[tbh2023]

My depression is taking everything from me, I don't enjoy anything at this point and I reached that level of creating fake smile on my face, the suicidal face. I'm asking my depression to go head and take my life away. Nothing left. Let's go

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

It hurts knowing even forcing food down your throat and avoiding sugar to loose weight to ctb instead of enjoying life equally hurts as much and when you can't sleep…

I know the fake smile… I pretended to be very extroverted and be as much hyper as I was… when I wasn't. I'm a natural smiler, but I have been numb inside and forced more interactions the past few years…

It never gets better lol.

Hope you're okay

 

[tbh2023]

It hurts knowing even forcing food down your throat and avoiding sugar to loose weight to ctb instead of enjoying life equally hurts as much and when you can't sleep…

I know the fake smile… I pretended to be very extroverted and be as much hyper as I was… when I wasn't. I'm a natural smiler, but I have been numb inside and forced more interactions the past few years…

It never gets better lol.

Hope you're okay

Exactly what you said. I'm not ok. I just hate pretending to be. I'm at this point where I don't care if it will hurt my parents. I'm just be selfish. Living like this is not fair.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Exactly what you said. I'm not ok. I just hate pretending to be. I'm at this point where I don't care if it will hurt my parents. I'm just be selfish. Living like this is not fair.

The truth is no one is inherently selfish. We're all selfish but forcing someone against their will to abide their actions they don't know to get through and labeled that their entire life while being under a forced care system that operates on meds when people just need mental breaks, given actual support, love, and a community with reasonable respect and less stress contributes to more care than what your parents would believe you would need, especially if they brought you into this world against your will and didn't properly prepare for the outcome of you having a voice of reason of your own… it definitely is unfair and right with you on finding stability through the process

 

[tbh2023]

The truth is no one is inherently selfish. We're all selfish but forcing someone against their will to abide their actions they don't know to get through and labeled that their entire life while being under a forced care system that operates on meds when people just need mental breaks, given actual support, love, and a community with reasonable respect and less stress contributes to more care than what your parents would believe you would need, especially if they brought you into this world against your will and didn't properly prepare for the outcome of you having a voice of reason of your own… it definitely is unfair and right with you on finding stability through the process

Thank you @idelttoilfsadness21 for understanding my journey. I feel that I'm ready to just leave this life behind me. I do believe this life is the worst and whatever happened after life I'm ok with consequences. You try and you try until you can't try anymore. I literally have no energy to keep pretending. Im not ready for the adult life. I don't think I'll survive working all day and have family on my own, giving my severe depression. I just have to figure out what method to go with.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Thank you @idelttoilfsadness21 for understanding my journey. I feel that I'm ready to just leave this life behind me. I do believe this life is the worst and whatever happened after life I'm ok with consequences. You try and you try until you can't try anymore. I literally have no energy to keep pretending. Im not ready for the adult life. I don't think I'll survive working all day and have family on my own, giving my severe depression. I just have to figure out what method to go with.

You're very greatly appreciated @tbh2023 . Also, this is our first interaction we have together. I've seen you since I've been here. How swell
And trust me, it sucked for me when I turned 18… I hope you have a greater journey than I, but we will see… (how the world ends up destroying another year for us) And if you are aware of this, and believe so, yeah welcome to ctbing… it's very sad journey when you have no other choice to accept that dying is much fucking harder… and excuse my language but dying isn't the worse feeling… it's not knowing peace that is and how you decide that, it's the worse feeling, and not all wants ctb when they are at their lowest point but it's what we have at the very least to finding something to closure and everyone's journey is different.

I wish you the best…

I still have the perfect and know what I'll do when I get my SN.

I wish you the best of luck

Ah, call me Livia ^^

Let's talk anytime! Left my intro on the make friends forum on Offtopic :'))

Hope you get through to this month and few early months of this year… We will both need it

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I understand just wanting to be free from it all. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[tbh2023]

You're very greatly appreciated @tbh2023 . Also, this is our first interaction we have together. I've seen you since I've been here. How swell
And trust me, it sucked for me when I turned 18… I hope you have a greater journey than I, but we will see… (how the world ends up destroying another year for us) And if you are aware of this, and believe so, yeah welcome to ctbing… it's very sad journey when you have no other choice to accept that dying is much fucking harder… and excuse my language but dying isn't the worse feeling… it's not knowing peace that is and how you decide that, it's the worse feeling, and not all wants ctb when they are at their lowest point but it's what we have at the very least to finding something to closure and everyone's journey is different.

I wish you the best…

I still have the perfect and know what I'll do when I get my SN.

I wish you the best of luck

Ah, call me Livia ^^

Let's talk anytime! Left my intro on the make friends forum on Offtopic :'))

Hope you get through to this month and few early months of this year… We will both need it

Thank you, Livia! It was nice meeting you! You put a smile on my face

It's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I understand just wanting to be free from it all. But anyway I wish you the best.

Thank you @FuneralCry this life is very cruel. I'll be out of here soon