I have been skipping for awhile I won't lie. It's either be an emotionless zombie incapable of feeling or be an emotional wreck that feels too much. I don't know what to choose so a lot of the time I will skip and go back and forth on meds. I seem to ruin relationships on meds so easily because I become so callous and unbothered.
I suffer from anxiety so trust me when I say, I definitely understand. I admit, I frequently skip doses because I don't want to be in a relaxed state everyday, and zoned out. I do carry an emergency case of medication so IF I'm aware I need a dose I will take it. The problem is "if" I'm aware. Sometimes we get so caught up in everyday life we don't realize an issue is simply anxiety related but by then we have already missed a few doses and panicking or having a full anxiety attack. I suggest you take your dose now since you missed it and look at the clock and I'm sure in half hr or so, some of your symptoms will be relieved. Give your brain and body some time to rest because I'm sure it's in overdrive right now. Please take your medicine
I had a friend once tell me I was lucky to be prescribed what the Dr orders me. I felt so offended, nobody feels lucky when they are on anxiety medication as we often don't want to accept our diagnosis or don't believe it. Sometimes I run and take my medication because I will feel a panic attack coming on. In the moment I don't realize it's a panic attack of course, I think it's my final day on earth and I prepare for death lol. It's not funny but I can laugh about it when I'm in the right state of mind. I get all sweaty, feels like my chest will explode and I can feel my veins about to pop it lol. It's the same story, it's keep repeating
I want to die, I have SI, but on those days the will to live is overwhelming. I quickly take all my prescribed medication, quickly put myself on bedrest and watch the clock and wait until I die. As always, I fall asleep and wake up feeling better then immediately go back into denial that I don't have anxiety and skip doses again..then repeat...
I have been skipping for awhile I won't lie. It's either be an emotionless zombie incapable of feeling or be an emotional wreck that feels too much. I don't know what to choose so a lot of the time I will skip and go back and forth on meds. I seem to ruin relationships on meds so easily because I become so callous and unbothered.
Our minds and thoughts are so mean to us at times. If you feel overwhelmed then I'd be a zombie for the day and rest. When your anxiety is high, we don't make the best decisions and are very irritable to others. If you decide not to take your meds that's fine, just turn your phone ringer off and hide in yourself. That's always an option too.
