Venting Mental breakdown, came close to finishing the job.

[KadathianStr1d3r]

I hate work, ever since my older brother left the whole entire plant treats me like pure garbage and the god damn foreman just carelessy made me work myself to a lunatic load thag I began to cry for 5 hours straight to which to add further insult to my fragile state was that nobody even bothered to check up on me! I had a mental breakdown and I wanted to walk off the job to go buy some vodka to down with my entire adderall prescription! I also wanted to give myself a glasglow smile and I just wanted to cause myself the most extreme amount of physical damage/disfigurement as a form of punishment for my bad choices of the past that lead me to this ridiculous stupid as crap predicament! Grovin dammit I was so close to killing myself or seriously hurting myself cause of how shit my life had just gotten I can't stop thinking about killing myself that I think I may have gotten traumatized or some stuff like thay! Today the day after work lets jusy say I became a complete wreck in public that it was obvious to most people that I had the "oh gee hes sad, better not talk to him look" and I am getting paranoid that somebody will try to get me to go involuntarily see a "specialist" because i just had a bad day! Im sorry guys for sounding like a total panzh right now but I can feel my life may have gotten shorter bcause of my mental breakdown! Also sorry my bad writing, i guess I was retarded after all and I just wished my parents never haded me in the 1st place!
Sorry but i had to let some bushie out, thanks for letting me speak my mind out at least!

 

[AsexualBarbieBoy]

Sorry all that happened to you. I don't know why we were randomly thrust into this reality. Wish I could give you words to make sense of it all but it all seems so pointless really.

 

[DyingWitsie]

I hate work, ever since my older brother left the whole entire plant treats me like pure garbage and the god damn foreman just carelessy made me work myself to a lunatic load thag I began to cry for 5 hours straight to which to add further insult to my fragile state was that nobody even bothered to check up on me! I had a mental breakdown and I wanted to walk off the job to go buy some vodka to down with my entire adderall prescription! I also wanted to give myself a glasglow smile and I just wanted to cause myself the most extreme amount of physical damage/disfigurement as a form of punishment for my bad choices of the past that lead me to this ridiculous stupid as crap predicament! Grovin dammit I was so close to killing myself or seriously hurting myself cause of how shit my life had just gotten I can't stop thinking about killing myself that I think I may have gotten traumatized or some stuff like thay! Today the day after work lets jusy say I became a complete wreck in public that it was obvious to most people that I had the "oh gee hes sad, better not talk to him look" and I am getting paranoid that somebody will try to get me to go involuntarily see a "specialist" because i just had a bad day! Im sorry guys for sounding like a total panzh right now but I can feel my life may have gotten shorter bcause of my mental breakdown! Also sorry my bad writing, i guess I was retarded after all and I just wished my parents never haded me in the 1st place!
Sorry but i had to let some bushie out, thanks for letting me speak my mind out at least!

Im in your exact shoes, kinda. I tried to kill myself Sunday,Monday, Wednesday and i dont remember most of yesterday because i almost succeeded in dying. Now, everyone says "its sad" more than anything else. This is gona make me go sooner than later because ppl think im crazy. And them repeating it is making me crazier, but one day i'll be fine.
Just another note: i tried suffocating myself by hyperventilating then breath holding for some time. It made me closer to death than anything. Now i know that if my life does not change miraculously, im gona die.

 

[KadathianStr1d3r]

Im in your exact shoes, kinda. I tried to kill myself Sunday,Monday, Wednesday and i dont remember most of yesterday because i almost succeeded in dying. Now, everyone says "its sad" more than anything else. This is gona make me go sooner than later because ppl think im crazy. And them repeating it is making me crazier, but one day i'll be fine.
Just another note: i tried suffocating myself by hyperventilating then breath holding for some time. It made me closer to death than anything. Now i know that if my life does not change miraculously, im gona die.

Damn, I know that feeling in regards to the future. This morning I just slashed myself with my new utility knife and the pain just isnt doing it anymore like it use to. Anyways it feels like im about to go nuthouse and overcome my survival instincts pretty soon here if some miracle doesnt happen.

Sorry all that happened to you. I don't know why we were randomly thrust into this reality. Wish I could give you words to make sense of it all but it all seems so pointless really.

Nah its fine, words really cant change the knuckelheads these days since words themselves became so saturated with repeated mistranslations and different interpretations that its basically a real mad world we be living in unfortunately, appreciate the suuport though ;)