AShipinthedark
*Explosion Noises*
- Aug 1, 2023
- 64
"Thankyou for clicking on my my post, it will be the first of many. I apologize if many of you lack context for the following, but ill try and make a quick disclaimer I can share from post to post to help you all follow along with me. Mental stability is not one of my strong suits, indeed, I am a veritable cornucopia of delusion and stupidity. The symptoms of my particular brand of insanity and mental degeneration are the leading causes and push behind my wish to terminate my own life. In the recent year of our lord 2022, and leading into 2023, I have lost the ability to rationally process my own life and identity, but have accidently landed on what I call the "Spaceship Allegory", which seems to have ironically given me some new life to work with, though these days my filter only graces me with images of me hurtling through space on fire...My ex-wife said it properly, I love to tell a good story. I have made my profile open to guests and visitors, so please. Click me, it provides me with dopamine, but more importantly, you with delicious context! Or however much your own imagination can garner! Now, to our featured presentation."
Memory Log #1, "The Initial incident." {Trigger Warning: Sexual Abuse}
I pre and post apologize if my allegories or methods of information processing break any rules, I speak to you all as honestly as I can...
Memory Log #1, "The Initial incident." {Trigger Warning: Sexual Abuse}
Four years into operation (four years old....four. years. old.) Our superiors and fellow fleet members (My two older brothers), drove me into our home station (my bedroom) and de-boarded their own vessel and came onto ours and...(raped me...in my own bed). This had its own expected consequences but with my double A.I. (one identity a girl, but pushed to be a boy, and another identity a full girl) had many extraneous unexpected consequences. I knew it was wrong, but somehow felt it was nice to be treated like a girl. My immediate superior (my second oldest brother) continued the "special military exercises" for another six years...(All the while telling me "this is how you make people feel happy!", well....all I've ever wanted in life is to make people feel happy...)
I pre and post apologize if my allegories or methods of information processing break any rules, I speak to you all as honestly as I can...
