Fluoxetine 40mg a day, and mirtazapine 15mg a day, 5mg olanzapine a day, lorazepam 0.5mg as needed
Been on the fluoxetine and mirtazapine for over 20 years helps to some extent with my ocd, cant sleep without the mirtazapine anymore though. the olanzapine was started in the last 5 years and made a huge difference but my memory and ability to learn isnt as good as it used to be and i gained a lot of weight whereas i was severely underweight before, went from a uk size 2 to a 10
This combination actually seems to keep me largely stable except for that time of the month where i cant even pick up a glass without 5 hours of ocd rituals and its like being a kid again before i was medicated at all.
Despite all the sedatives im still pretty good at having multiday long sucessive panic attacks no matter how much lorazepam they give me
I was always massively against any medication at all but my life has been a lot more bearable since the olanzapine was added and i can just about take care of myself with minimal help now.
maybe ive just been hospitalised long enough that i gave up fighting the meds battle and i found out the hard way that if i stop taking them my entire life falls apart very quickly.
So i guess now im stuck on them