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ferrie
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- May 19, 2024
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Please no conspiracy theories on this thread, but I am getting so frustrated with how my psych meds are handled. Currently I'm on Buspar, Remeron, Lithium, Prazosin, and Seroquel & I start Spravato next week if I'm still around. The buspar makes me super dizzy, so I'm thankfully getting weaned off of that. It took me months to get them to agree to stop it though bc I got put on it at the psych ward by a doctor that literally only talked to me once & never did any dose adjustments. Now they want to wean me off of prazosin too bc it's not as effective anymore & could partially be causing my heart rate issues, but I'm only on 2 mg & I was on it with no issues before my overdose that made my heart problems worse. I really like my psychiatrist & know she's just trying to follow what the cardiologist thinks is best, but my cardiologist didn't even look at my full medical history. It makes sense to pinpoint the medication that lowers blood pressure as a potential problem, but my history is really complex & he didn't even have all of the records regarding my overdose bc that hospital is being a pain in the ass. That's like the one thing helping me get any sleep & there isn't a medication to replace it, so I wish they would try to explore other avenues first. I was given Seroquel off label for sleep bc my psychiatrist doesn't want to give me benzos. I understand and respect her reasoning. I am a high risk patient with a history of overdose and abusing my medication. Doctors also often shy away from giving me anything considered a stronger drug bc by weight I start on pediatric doses & with my health I can have really intense reactions to medications. But that's exactly the problem with Seroquel. It's not helping me sleep at all, I got maybe two hours last night, and it's making me feel very odd. Today I feel like I'm on a boat every time I try to walk & it's really hard to think. Talking & writing feels difficult bc I can't really string together sentences, which isn't an issue I've ever had outside of migraine brain fog. I know that there isn't a perfect combination of drugs that they can just give me off the bat to work & with any condition it takes trial & error. I really don't blame any of the doctors involved (except the psych ward one, fuck him). I just wish there was a better solution than 6 different medications that get adjusted every few weeks & "try some ketamine!"