meltskelt
who?
- Aug 11, 2023
- 112
The doctor increased my intake of antidepressents, said I'm still fragile... But he doesn't understand feeling numb and that I can only think and not constantly wish to die while medicated. He said " well, it's normal to feel worse at nigth"
They don't like when I say I feel like life isn't worth it, that I'm very very scared of the future and that there's not much of a meaning in anything I do. College starts next week and god knows how I just want to stay home forever and skip that shit, but what do I do when even home doesn't feel safe? What are things that I actually enjoy at this point? There is nothing I would miss if it ended, at max learning german, so should I just keep on going so I can become fluent in it and then... I die? Is that It?
How do people live like this? What do they crave? Sometimes I think they just keep moving foward without much of a tought because its easier to be dumb intead of always overthinkg and having mental breakdowns. For everyone I'm just a messed up kid, my parents don't really believe that I'm broken
They don't like when I say I feel like life isn't worth it, that I'm very very scared of the future and that there's not much of a meaning in anything I do. College starts next week and god knows how I just want to stay home forever and skip that shit, but what do I do when even home doesn't feel safe? What are things that I actually enjoy at this point? There is nothing I would miss if it ended, at max learning german, so should I just keep on going so I can become fluent in it and then... I die? Is that It?
How do people live like this? What do they crave? Sometimes I think they just keep moving foward without much of a tought because its easier to be dumb intead of always overthinkg and having mental breakdowns. For everyone I'm just a messed up kid, my parents don't really believe that I'm broken
