Rocksandsand
Specialist
- May 26, 2019
- 396
So I went to my GP because everyone around me is saying I need it, and he is super lovely, but he recommenced me on an antidepressant that I have already been on (I've tried every single antidepressant on the Australian market except for one tricyclic and the MAOIs which I refuse to touch).
I feel like I am just repeating history and going through the motions now. I am classed as treatment resistant, so why am I being told to just repeat the antidepressants that we know don't work? I feel like my GP is just as lost as me right now. I haven't had a consistent psychiatrist - just randoms - so no professional has ever had the sense of obligation that comes with someone being 'their patient.'
I just feel so hopeless. I wish I could just receive psychiatric palliative care until I CtB... I wish I could just explain to everyone I care about while I am alive that I love them and it's not their fault.
Assisted dying laws recently came into effect in my jurisdiction but they don't apply to mental illness. I almost feel like starting a legal challenge to the laws to apply to depression and mental illness before I CtB so that I at least make a difference to other people who are suffering.
I feel like I am just repeating history and going through the motions now. I am classed as treatment resistant, so why am I being told to just repeat the antidepressants that we know don't work? I feel like my GP is just as lost as me right now. I haven't had a consistent psychiatrist - just randoms - so no professional has ever had the sense of obligation that comes with someone being 'their patient.'
I just feel so hopeless. I wish I could just receive psychiatric palliative care until I CtB... I wish I could just explain to everyone I care about while I am alive that I love them and it's not their fault.
Assisted dying laws recently came into effect in my jurisdiction but they don't apply to mental illness. I almost feel like starting a legal challenge to the laws to apply to depression and mental illness before I CtB so that I at least make a difference to other people who are suffering.