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[InLifeThereIsDeath]

Hi! Since deciding that a drug overdose was not a great way to go, I've narrowed it down to night night or sn. I've figured out where I can get everything I need, however there will be some delay as I'm waiting for a check to clear so I have the money.
Do people think one method is more successive or less painless than the other?
Any advice for final affairs? I have a will. I'm debating about a note/video. I feel very selfish for leaving a somewhat messy house and two cats that have already lost their grandma and now will lose mummy. As well good people. But I just can't do this anymore. I'm sorry if I trigger or annoy anyone. I just want to be able to talk everything over freely.

 

[MeatPopsicle]

Have you checked out this SN Resource Page ?

 

[Onlyborrowedtime]

Hi! Since deciding that a drug overdose was not a great way to go, I've narrowed it down to night night or sn. I've figured out where I can get everything I need, however there will be some delay as I'm waiting for a check to clear so I have the money.
Do people think one method is more successive or less painless than the other?
Any advice for final affairs? I have a will. I'm debating about a note/video. I feel very selfish for leaving a somewhat messy house and two cats that have already lost their grandma and now will lose mummy. As well good people. But I just can't do this anymore. I'm sorry if I trigger or annoy anyone. I just want to be able to talk everything over freely.

Quit your job maybe if you're employed? If you have family or friends it might be nice to clean up rather then have to clean up. It may make it harder for them to know what was/wasn't important to you.

I would also give your cats to a shelter. Unless you know for certain you'll be found next day the cats could end up starving or scratching you corpse (they may even eat parts of you if the get hungry enough). I would leave a video if possible. Explain why you feel like this. Why you didn't reach out etc. It gives people closure and let's them hear you one more time. But this all depends whether you are able to physically and mentally.

As for methods nighty nighty from my limited understanding is almost painless but it's harder to get right and getting it wrong hurts. Plus if you get found before completion you will have brain damage. SN reports vary but generally considered mild pain/discomfort. Both method are extremely (90%+) as long as you follow the guides correctly and don't get found/call for help.
I provide this as learning and teaching. I do not support, endorse or by any other means encourage or asists any suicide that may come from it.
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[InLifeThereIsDeath]

I have checked all resource pages. My cats will have plenty to eat for 2 weeks as they have an automated feeder. I won't be found for at least 24 hours although for the sake of my beneficiaries being able to sell the house quick I may go to a hotel. Less distress for the animals and probably my partner who comes into the house. And no cleanup in case I'm sick or anything for him either. Yes I'm very much aware that someone has to deal but hotels apparently call in special cleaners who are used to it. I have left the cats in my will to my partner as I'd prefer they stay with someone who is familiar.

 

[MeatPopsicle]

I may go to a hotel. Less distress for the animals and probably my partner who comes into the house. And no cleanup in case I'm sick or anything for him either. Yes I'm very much aware that someone has to deal but hotels apparently call in special cleaners who are used to it.

It doesn't seem like there is much though about if an employee finds you and the trauma they may go through

 

[LMLN]

I was never able to get night night to work. I could not get the thing tight enough I guess.

 

[InLifeThereIsDeath]

It doesn't seem like there is much though about if an employee finds you and the trauma they may go through

Employees are trained to call the emergency services as soon as they see an unconscious body. They don't have to do the clean up. And to them I'm just another human who check out of life. Neither way is ideal. But what am I supposed to do? I welcome better suggestions (that don't include not ctb)

I was never able to get night night to work. I could not get the thing tight enough I guess.

If it fails at least I have sn

 

[Onlyborrowedtime]

Employees are trained to call the emergency services as soon as they see an unconscious body. They don't have to do the clean up. And to them I'm just another human who check out of life. Neither way is ideal. But what am I supposed to do? I welcome better suggestions (that don't include not ctb)

If it fails at least I have sn

If you are open to other suggestions that aren't CTB related you could try checking out the recovery section? You may find something on there that helps you?

I think doing it in a hotel is good, but if you want to minimise trauma I recommend doing something like this.
Write a note saying something like: " I (insert name here) on (insert date here) have decided to take my life. In this room you will find my body, my will, my suicide note (if applicable), (and anything else of importance you took with you). Please notify the relevent authorities to have my body removed as soon as possible and ask them to contact (insert contact number of any family/friends/partner) to notify them of my passing. I'm sorry for the inconvenience this has caused and I wish you a pleasant day."
I would then sign it at the bottom too. You can the put a sheet up in the doorway and stick the note to it. Anyone that walks in won't be able to see you but will see the note and hopefully call the police/whoever.

It may seem a bit over the top but that is my plan and hopefully will do enough to minimise the trauma for anyone who comes into the room. I would also pick a big chain hotel (if money allows). They generally more use to things like this happening and can support their staff better.

I'm sorry you feel like there's no other choice. I hope you find peace in your choice.