Maybe my ctb spot

[kfad95]

Thinking this very rough beach 40 minutes from my house may be the way to go. The rocks around the corner have claimed 30 fisherman's lives washing out to sea.

In NZ firearms are hard to get and hanging scares me so I'm thinking getting blind drunk and going for a swim. Problem is I know SI will be strong and I will probably chicken out

 

[strangelife]

You live in such a nice place!

 

[kfad95]

You live in such a nice place!

Thanks! 40 odd minutes to the west coast and 1 and a half hours to the east! Would love going on beach missions and relaxing by the ocean!

Now after ssri injury I can't relax at all or enjoy the scenery so I mainly drive to them and look at ways I could die

 

[FuneralCry]

It's extreme cruelty to me how people cannot have the option to permanently free themselves from all the suffering in a more peaceful way but anyway I wish you the best and I hope that you find peace eventually.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Such a beautiful beach and the waves!

I'm sorry you have to go through this and meds destroyed your life.

 

[rozeske]

It's a beautiful spot
All the best to you in your plans

 

[Dliena]

Such gorgeous spot! I've always loved the beach but anywho I hope you'll be able to get your wish OP.

 

[theboy]

is a strong method and you may despair when you are at sea.

 

[kfad95]

is a strong method and you may despair when you are at sea.

Yeah that's what I worry about, I'm not sure I'll have the courage to take the plunge.

 

[theboy]

Yeah that's what I worry about, I'm not sure I'll have the courage to take the plunge.

there are more methods that are available but I hope you find a way to get ahead why do you want ctb? pm if you want to

 

[PetrichorBirth]

May i ask, what scares you about hanging?

 

[kfad95]

there are more methods that are available but I hope you find a way to get ahead why do you want ctb? pm if you want to

Unfortunately I can't PM unless you can message me?

Up until 8 months ago I was happy but had recently stopped ssris that I was taking for Anxiety and then I started a new job and started taking meds 2 months later from the time I stopped. and it has caused likely permanent anhedonia and sexual dysfunction.

Can't feel alcohol or any substance, no happy emotions only negative extreme fatigue. It's horrible

May i ask, what scares you about hanging?

I guess it's more the finding the place to do it, getting the rope and making sure it's tied correctly, I have a partial set up in my wardrobe but I think full suspension would be easier?

I'm basically very scared to go through with it even tho I know I need to do it.

 

[Mayonaise]

Magnificent scenery.
Sorry to bother you, but have you been diagnosed with 'permanent anhedonia' or is it just a conclusion of yours? It's always heartbreaking to hear such stories

 

[kfad95]

Magnificent scenery.
Sorry to bother you, but have you been diagnosed with 'permanent anhedonia' or is it just a conclusion of yours? It's always heartbreaking to hear such stories

I've had pssd for 6 months now with no improvements so anhedonia and sexual dysfunction. It's definitely heartbreaking when you realise it could be permanent. I can't get a doctors diagnosis they just say depression and want to give other medication.

I wasn't depressed before and only using for anxiety which was dumb. Oh well.

 

[Mayonaise]

I've had pssd for 6 months now with no improvements so anhedonia and sexual dysfunction. It's definitely heartbreaking when you realise it could be permanent. I can't get a doctors diagnosis they just say depression and want to give other medication.

I wasn't depressed before and only using for anxiety which was dumb. Oh well.

I'm not familiar with PSSD and barely know what it is, but you're not the only one in this community to be suffering from it. I didn't know that you could get chronic anhedonia either.
I only wish you could wait a little more and see if the symptoms can somehow get better, but it's your body and your choice. Whatever you do, please accept some hugs from me

 

[Dark Window]

I am 90% sure you'd fail CTBing this way. Drowning is a horrible way to die and you'd almost certainly fight your way back to the surface at some point.

I wont suggest what method is best for you, but I am personally going for jump or train.

 

[kfad95]

I'm not familiar with PSSD and barely know what it is, but you're not the only one in this community to be suffering from it. I didn't know that you could get chronic anhedonia either.
I only wish you could wait a little more and see if the symptoms can somehow get better, but it's your body and your choice. Whatever you do, please accept some hugs from me

It's horrible and than you basically affects all your pleasure sensors so makes it impossible to have happy feelings or feel alcohol and similar they don't know the cause or cure... some people report getting better over years and some don't. Also low libido which is horrible.

Makes it hard for daily life. I'm reasonably well off so I may just sell my assets and travel to see if I can get better. Will see how I get on if SN was available easily I probably wouldn't be able to resist

 

[tbroken]

It's horrible and than you basically affects all your pleasure sensors so makes it impossible to have happy feelings or feel alcohol and similar they don't know the cause or cure... some people report getting better over years and some don't. Also low libido which is horrible.

Makes it hard for daily life. I'm reasonably well off so I may just sell my assets and travel to see if I can get better. Will see how I get on if SN was available easily I probably wouldn't be able to resist

I felt the same for all these years and I live half detached from all the things I do.
People don't also like this and I met a lot of sociopaths who tried to get advantage over me, insane mfs. I live with a little hope of being happy again though, you never know.

 

[Mayonaise]

It's horrible and than you basically affects all your pleasure sensors so makes it impossible to have happy feelings or feel alcohol and similar they don't know the cause or cure... some people report getting better over years and some don't. Also low libido which is horrible.

Makes it hard for daily life. I'm reasonably well off so I may just sell my assets and travel to see if I can get better. Will see how I get on if SN was available easily I probably wouldn't be able to resist

Thank you for explaining this to me, I wasn't aware of how awful it could be. Since you mention traveling, I suggest visiting the Canary Islands and Algarve (southern Portugal).
They're pretty far away from NZ but if you like beaches/ocean scenery you'll definitely like it. Some more hugs for you

 

[kfad95]

I am 90% sure you'd fail CTBing this way. Drowning is a horrible way to die and you'd almost certainly fight your way back to the surface at some point.

I wont suggest what method is best for you, but I am personally going for jump or train.

Yeah the surf has multiple rips amd basically drags people out to sea, bit yes it would be difficult to get the courage to get in and try