Maybe it wasn't such a good idea to keep guns in the house just because I hadn't been suicidal for a few years

[derpyderpins]

Title + obvious meaning

 

[azo]

Are you alright? Is there any possibility you could have someone else keep them (under a guise if that's necessary)?

 

[Ash]

Given that you're posting this in Recovery, can you legally get someone else to hold onto them or at least lock them up securely and give them the key and all ammo? (And maybe vital components if you can easily strip them down?) Or put the key in a bank storage safe or whatever, just to make it harder to get so you can't be impulsive?

 

[derpyderpins]

Are you alright? Is there any possibility you could have someone else keep them (under a guise if that's necessary)?

Given that you're posting this in Recovery, can you legally get someone else to hold onto them or at least lock them up securely and give them the key and all ammo? (And maybe vital components if you can easily strip them down?) Or put the key in a bank storage safe or whatever, just to make it harder to get so you can't be impulsive?

I'm fine. I'm not going to do anything. I've learned not to make decisions when I feel this bad.

I just wake up with another splitting headache and my head feeling like it's squeezing in. It's just exhaustion. I've gotten sleep, I drank water, ate real food with appropriate nutrition, exercised, took headache meds, took sinus meds. It's not going to help. I'm mentally exhausted. And there's no end in sight. Ever. And it just sucks that there's something that could take all the pain away right there and I can't do it.

I don't need to get rid of them. I'm not going to shoot myself. I just posted this to be a bitch and get attention and pity.

 

[Ash]

I feel you with the headaches.

Hope yours eases soon.

 

[KillingPain267]

If guns were legal in my country and I had one, I would have splattered my brains 12 months ago already before I even started researching methods (the unlucky bastard I am, I would probably have missed and survived with damage, lol).

 

[azo]

And it just sucks that there's something that could take all the pain away right there and I can't do it.

I'm sorry. I can understand this on some level. I've had SN in my possession for around a year and still don't think I can do it (as in, unconvinced it's the right decision) even though the idea of terminating my consciousness has been very appealing, for numerous reasons.

I hope you're able to feel better soon, even if only physically for now.