Justaroguegear
Tired
- Mar 11, 2020
- 79
Like going in to work and saying hi how are you and thanks and you're welcome at every little meaningless interaction. All fake shit.
Hi how are you? I'm good, here a random fact/lie about life, isn't it good to be alive? How about you? Good, here's a random line of dialogue about mine.
The only reason I can still bear this existence is because I stopped pretending, and almost never say anything I don't mean. Whenever I tell someone a sliver of truth at work, they take it as a joke, they are so fake that it's as if I just said high treason and the dictator will execute me if he finds out. It's as if saying negative things is out of order, it's wrong, and needs to played off as a joke.
So I leave it at that, I'm definitely not seeking to argue with these drones. Of course that's just co-workers that's obviously the way to go anyway. Not like they say much more, they love to tell random little things about their lives but it's as if all conversations have a character limit because the further you go the more you have to fake.
But I talked to people who dislike capitalism, are aware of global warming, and still there's a wall I hit with them. A limit to how much truth they admit. I've talked to a person that hates their job and is constantly miserable, thinks wages are a joke, which they are and yet condones people bringing more children in the world, keeps talking about changing the system.
I don't get how people can lie to themselves, and ignore everything around them. The phone and clothes I have and everything is made possible by miserable people living in technical slavery. The planet is burning alive and everyone's solution is to just tune out of that particular line of news and ignore it. Because the truth would be unpleasant. Admitting these things would mean they'd have to change their comfortable way of life.
All the rich people took all our money a long time ago. Why are they still doing business when they could live x amount of lifetimes with their net worth? Because money is worthless to them a long time ago and all they can get is labor from us. All the 'business' they do is just playing with a bunch of numbers so that they end up with the most amount of people that do labor for them. So we work for them, and are forever in debt and everyone is so fake they can't face it and just make more of themselves so they can live their lives in debt too and start all over again.
I let go of all that. Everything fucking sucks and it only takes a bit of thinking to realize it. So I just exist as a rogue human doing whatever the fuck eases the pain. A lot of rules are bullshit, I don't know where I'd be without weed and shrooms. But there's legal alcohol, maybe if we stopped pretending it wasn't just a poison and getting drunk just sucks. I mean it ends in vomiting and amnesia, not to mention the organ damage. But we can't have a conversation about that because any other substances that make you feel funny are bad and any other line of thinking is degenerate and taboo.
So at this point I am detached from everything, I only do things to make me feel good. I don't partake in alcohol, I don't do things I won't enjoy just to be polite, I'm not nice to my parents, I'm not asking anyone how they are doing unless I actually cared, I stopped faking and pretending.
I don't make a big deal out of it because that would cause even more inconvenience. I don't argue anymore, I mostly just stay quiet.
I don't know anyone in real life who has the same mindset as me. Someone I know very well told me that I'm right but he was asking me to stop and I did, because he has lots to deal with too. But that's the closest anyone ever came to agreeing with me.
But maybe if we just stopped pretending and saying "negative" things wasn't taboo this world wouldn't suck as much.
Hi how are you? I'm good, here a random fact/lie about life, isn't it good to be alive? How about you? Good, here's a random line of dialogue about mine.
The only reason I can still bear this existence is because I stopped pretending, and almost never say anything I don't mean. Whenever I tell someone a sliver of truth at work, they take it as a joke, they are so fake that it's as if I just said high treason and the dictator will execute me if he finds out. It's as if saying negative things is out of order, it's wrong, and needs to played off as a joke.
So I leave it at that, I'm definitely not seeking to argue with these drones. Of course that's just co-workers that's obviously the way to go anyway. Not like they say much more, they love to tell random little things about their lives but it's as if all conversations have a character limit because the further you go the more you have to fake.
But I talked to people who dislike capitalism, are aware of global warming, and still there's a wall I hit with them. A limit to how much truth they admit. I've talked to a person that hates their job and is constantly miserable, thinks wages are a joke, which they are and yet condones people bringing more children in the world, keeps talking about changing the system.
I don't get how people can lie to themselves, and ignore everything around them. The phone and clothes I have and everything is made possible by miserable people living in technical slavery. The planet is burning alive and everyone's solution is to just tune out of that particular line of news and ignore it. Because the truth would be unpleasant. Admitting these things would mean they'd have to change their comfortable way of life.
All the rich people took all our money a long time ago. Why are they still doing business when they could live x amount of lifetimes with their net worth? Because money is worthless to them a long time ago and all they can get is labor from us. All the 'business' they do is just playing with a bunch of numbers so that they end up with the most amount of people that do labor for them. So we work for them, and are forever in debt and everyone is so fake they can't face it and just make more of themselves so they can live their lives in debt too and start all over again.
I let go of all that. Everything fucking sucks and it only takes a bit of thinking to realize it. So I just exist as a rogue human doing whatever the fuck eases the pain. A lot of rules are bullshit, I don't know where I'd be without weed and shrooms. But there's legal alcohol, maybe if we stopped pretending it wasn't just a poison and getting drunk just sucks. I mean it ends in vomiting and amnesia, not to mention the organ damage. But we can't have a conversation about that because any other substances that make you feel funny are bad and any other line of thinking is degenerate and taboo.
So at this point I am detached from everything, I only do things to make me feel good. I don't partake in alcohol, I don't do things I won't enjoy just to be polite, I'm not nice to my parents, I'm not asking anyone how they are doing unless I actually cared, I stopped faking and pretending.
I don't make a big deal out of it because that would cause even more inconvenience. I don't argue anymore, I mostly just stay quiet.
I don't know anyone in real life who has the same mindset as me. Someone I know very well told me that I'm right but he was asking me to stop and I did, because he has lots to deal with too. But that's the closest anyone ever came to agreeing with me.
But maybe if we just stopped pretending and saying "negative" things wasn't taboo this world wouldn't suck as much.
