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Unsure and alone
It's a slow fade
- Dec 10, 2023
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I feel like crap .
I'm strongly considering another time of using SN.
The problem isn't the method
It's that I keep doing it impulsively and not enough to die .
I suppose in defense of how I'm still here after 4 such doing the same stupid action.
Number 1
I was fighting it out in the moment
It was incredibly impulsive
And definitely not an ideal scenario.
I made a post about that one.
Numbers 3 and 4
Were both incredibly impulsive and both were affected by other factors resulting in at least partly aborted attempt.
Number 3 was definitely deliberately stopped and I tried to do other things to function better.
( I remembered I was supposed to be handling something and people were coming whether I liked it or not. )
Number 4 was more complicated to describe it.
I was talking to someone.
They partly reached me , before only having more time Tomorrow
So I took an amount I had survived before instead of as much as I measured.
It's actually pretty interesting when you think about it .
4 attempts with the same method and yet each one of them was different.
Anyways I'm dealing with a few things before possibly doing this so the others won't know I'm in trouble if I do.
Anyone want to talk ?
About kinda anything ?
I'm also really lonely right now.
I'm strongly considering another time of using SN.
The problem isn't the method
It's that I keep doing it impulsively and not enough to die .
I suppose in defense of how I'm still here after 4 such doing the same stupid action.
Number 1
I was fighting it out in the moment
It was incredibly impulsive
And definitely not an ideal scenario.
I made a post about that one.
Numbers 3 and 4
Were both incredibly impulsive and both were affected by other factors resulting in at least partly aborted attempt.
Number 3 was definitely deliberately stopped and I tried to do other things to function better.
( I remembered I was supposed to be handling something and people were coming whether I liked it or not. )
Number 4 was more complicated to describe it.
I was talking to someone.
They partly reached me , before only having more time Tomorrow
So I took an amount I had survived before instead of as much as I measured.
It's actually pretty interesting when you think about it .
4 attempts with the same method and yet each one of them was different.
Anyways I'm dealing with a few things before possibly doing this so the others won't know I'm in trouble if I do.
Anyone want to talk ?
About kinda anything ?
I'm also really lonely right now.