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Here's something I find myself thinking about all the time:
So there's a ton of us who want to ctb, right?
And there's got to be a lot of people whose fondest dream in life is to drive that bus for someone else, you know what I mean?

Shouldn't there be a way for us to find each other? I don't think there's any sites like that, but if there are, I want to know about them.
Personally, I'd love to have somebody else behind the wheel. I wouldn't have to worry about failing if I could trust that the other person would finish the job. We'd both be actualizing each other's hard-to-fulfill wishes.

I've secretly hoped past relationships would end that way. Anyone else?
 
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Like this? https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/partners-megathread.1253/

Or did you mean dating?
 
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Like this? https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/partners-megathread.1253/

Or did you mean dating?
The point of that thread is that you both ctb, right?
I was thinking about meeting someone who wouldn't necessarily want to catch it together, but to ensure that I've caught it.
I know it's taboo to talk about, but plenty of people fantasize about doing that to someone else, even in a controlled environment.
 
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Here's something I find myself thinking about all the time:
So there's a ton of us who want to ctb, right?
And there's got to be a lot of people whose fondest dream in life is to drive that bus for someone else, you know what I mean?

Shouldn't there be a way for us to find each other? I don't think there's any sites like that, but if there are, I want to know about them.
Personally, I'd love to have somebody else behind the wheel. I wouldn't have to worry about failing if I could trust that the other person would finish the job. We'd both be actualizing each other's hard-to-fulfill wishes.

I've secretly hoped past relationships would end that way. Anyone else?
It wouldn't work. Even tried it to confirm. A sadist gets off by hurting, harming. A truly willing partner bores them. They would reclaim their arousal only by finding ways to turn it into something you *don't* want, and they are pretty creative. Don't try it. Or try it, whatever, but you're not gonna like it.
 
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It wouldn't work. Even tried it to confirm. A sadist gets off by hurting, harming. A truly willing partner bores them. They would reclaim their arousal only by finding ways to turn it into something you *don't* want, and they are pretty creative. Don't try it. Or try it, whatever, but you're not gonna like it.
Sorry that experience didn't end well for you.
Maybe the "gentleman psychopath" of my dreams only exists in my head.

But my thinking is, genuine sadism is one thing, isn't straight-up murderlust another?
 
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The point of that thread is that you both ctb, right?
I was thinking about meeting someone who wouldn't necessarily want to catch it together, but to ensure that I've caught it.
I know it's taboo to talk about, but plenty of people fantasize about doing that to someone else, even in a controlled environment.
I understand. Like a strangling fetishist or something. Yeah it can seem romantic on the surface but I don't know. I got burned pretty bad a few times fucking around like that.
It's just something in general that would traumatize most healthy people, so the people you find to go there with you will be not-so-healthy, and giving you what you want won't satisfy them, they will find ways to hurt you that you aren't going to enjoy, believe it. There is no IRL Fifty shades of grey, only fifty shades of psycho.
The ethical sadist is a romantic fantasy.
 
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Sorry that experience didn't end well for you.
Maybe the "gentleman psychopath" of my dreams only exists in my head.

But my thinking is, genuine sadism is one thing, isn't straight-up murderlust another?
Maybe in fantasizing but not in real life. In real life if somebody wanted to murder, I doubt they'd choose the option of a matchmaking service. So much potential to walk into a trap and get arrested, or even if it's not a trap there's no guarantee the suicidal person won't chicken out and turn the would-be-killer in to the police.
And how would such a service ever possibly keep sadists out?
 
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Yea I've posted before about my adventures with sadists who had the urge to actually kill. Even had sex with a gun to the back of my head but I was too into it so they got bored.

Best bet, you run across someone with a Bundy fixation and get raped and murdered.
 
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Maybe in fantasizing but not in real life. In real life if somebody wanted to murder, I doubt they'd choose the option of a matchmaking service. So much potential to walk into a trap and get arrested, or even if it's not a trap there's no guarantee the suicidal person won't chicken out and turn the would-be-killer in to the police
Yeah, but all of the same is true with the partner thread, and people are still using it to find each other.
You could make the argument that somebody who's desperately suicidal wouldn't be in their right mind either, but that doesn't mean we're necessarily a danger to each other.

idk, I'm sure a site like that wouldn't survive for long, but that's my ideal situation
 
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Yeah, but all of the same is true with the partner thread, and people are still using it to find each other.
You could make the argument that somebody who's desperately suicidal wouldn't be in their right mind either, but that doesn't mean we're necessarily a danger to each other.

idk, I'm sure a site like that wouldn't survive for long, but that's my ideal situation
Read the warnings on that thread. It's not for people to kill each other either.

There's Dignitas if you want a safe option.
 
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Also your desire to die means no more to a psychopath than another victim's wish to live. He does not care what you want, this is his game, not yours. He has just as much contempt for you as any other victim, even more so because you sought him out, thought you were so smart, thought *you* could make rules and he would obey, thought *you* would be the one to use *him*.
Their whole life is about making a fool of everybody, including you. They might kill you, but I guarantee they will not let you enjoy it.
Yea I've posted before about my adventures with sadists who had the urge to actually kill. Even had sex with a gun to the back of my head but I was too into it so they got bored.

Best bet, you run across someone with a Bundy fixation and get raped and murdered.
yep. it's not the kill that excites them. no fear, no excitement, no boner.
 
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Read the warnings on that thread. It's not for people to kill each other either.

There's Dignitas if you want a safe option.
I know it's not, what I'm saying is that you're still taking more or less the same risks meeting folks there that you would in trying to find someone else to end your life.
 
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I know it's not, what I'm saying is that you're still taking more or less the same risks meeting folks there that you would in trying to find someone else to end your life.
You're taking the same risks on the partner thread, yes. But that thread at least has the potential for a situation that doesn't involve torture. A tinder for getting murdered ONLY has the option of finding a psychopath.
 
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I know it's not, what I'm saying is that you're still taking more or less the same risks meeting folks there that you would in trying to find someone else to end your life.
fair enough.
 
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Also your desire to die means no more to a psychopath than another victim's wish to live. He does not care what you want, this is his game, not yours. He has just as much contempt for you as any other victim, even more so because you sought him out, thought you were so smart, thought *you* could make rules and he would obey, thought *you* would be the one to use *him*.
Their whole life is about making a fool of everybody, including you. They might kill you, but I guarantee they will not let you enjoy it.

yep. it's not the kill that excites them. no fear, no excitement, no boner.
And what I'm talking about is, my dream is to find someone for whom the kill is the point. People like that do exist, even if they're less common than your garden variety psychopath.
 
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I know it's not, what I'm saying is that you're still taking more or less the same risks meeting folks there that you would in trying to find someone else to end your life.

If somebody wants to kill and somehow isn't a psychopath, they have much better options than a matchmaking site that'll surely get them arrested with a nice paper trail of evidence, too. They can just be a hospice nurse. Or find some homeless dude.
 
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If somebody wants to kill and somehow isn't a psychopath, they have much better options than a matchmaking site that'll surely get them arrested with a nice paper trail of evidence, too. They can just be a hospice nurse. Or find some homeless dude.
Or I can give you my ex's phone number. (Kidding)
 
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And what I'm talking about is, my dream is to find someone for whom the kill is the point. People like that do exist, even if they're less common than your garden variety psychopath.
Look up the news stories about nurses calling themselves "angels of death", that already exists as an option
Or I can give you my ex's phone number. (Kidding)

Hahahaha im good but thanks for the offer. Maybe OP wants it though
 
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lol I bet you're just as likely to meet a shitty sadistic savior too. Someone who will pretend to partner you then think they can scare you into wanting to live. That would be just as creepy and gross, ew. EW. :II
 
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Look up the news stories about nurses calling themselves "angels of death", that already exists as an option
That's super interesting, I wasn't aware of that as a phenomenon.
Anyway, I know there's no easily accessible site like that. I just can't afford a hitman on the deep web and I was curious if many of us had the same daydream.
 
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That's super interesting, I wasn't aware of that as a phenomenon.
Anyway, I know there's no easily accessible site like that. I just can't afford a hitman on the deep web and I was curious if many of us had the same daydream.
The darknet hitman ads are almost all bullshit. They steal your money and also blackmail you on top of it.
That's super interesting, I wasn't aware of that as a phenomenon.
Anyway, I know there's no easily accessible site like that. I just can't afford a hitman on the deep web and I was curious if many of us had the same daydream.
Its so unrealistic that it's not even something I'd daydream about :/
 

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