Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
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If there was a magic wand that existed that could change all your problems...

Would you wish you were dead....

Or would you change your life? If so what would you change?

  • I would wish for supportive parents that validated my feelings
  • I would wish to forget my traumas
  • I would wish that I didn't have depression, anxiety, PTSD, Complex grief and psychosis
  • I would wish for the best support for my Autism that would enable me to live the life that I want to live
  • I would wish that I wasn't afraid to be myself and that I didn't hate myself
  • I would wish the only person that mattered to me was still alive
  • And finally I would wish that I mattered to someone else and that my life was worth living
Those would be a miracle.
 
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K-O

FU(KOFFEE
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i wish you had a magic wand dear..
im at that point that i just have to except (for my peace in my last chapter) the reality
and fighting\wishing\hoping etc now is self destructive (lol)..
but-- i wish i had the "magic wand" again! (ultimate old school granny vibrator!) had one years back and it burned out and short circuited my apartment.. me naked alone in the dark and electric smoke coming out of the wall... horny and lonely... low point.. (this is Mishone sighning out :wink: )
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
Nov 17, 2019
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Change life
...obviously
 
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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
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i wish you had a magic wand dear..
im at that point that i just have to except (for my peace in my last chapter) the reality
and fighting\wishing\hoping etc now is self destructive (lol)..
but-- i wish i had the "magic wand" again! (ultimate old school granny vibrator!) had one years back and it burned out and short circuited my apartment.. me naked alone in the dark and electric smoke coming out of the wall... horny and lonely... low point.. (this is Mishone sighning out :wink: )
x
I would hahaha react at this. That's a funny story lol and I'm glad Michonne the dildo wielder is back Haha Haha. :smiling:
 
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Iwantoutrightnow

Experienced
Jun 27, 2019
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Therapists/mental health professionals love this one - 'If you had a magic wand that could change anything what would you change to make life worth living?' or 'What does a life worth living look like?'

For me, I think I'm past that. If I had a good job/a partner/kids/ nice house/nice car etc it wouldn't make any difference as I would just use the magic wand to make me disappear.

I'd like to be able to tell my mum that I love her and hear her say she loves me but essentially the magic wand would need to change the entire life that I've led so far and therefore change me. I can try to change my life that is ahead but I can't change what i have already experienced and unfortunately that informs who I am now, the way I think and respond to the world.

If you want to change things that are attainable then I think there is hope still but not so much if you want to change your essential being.
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
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Makes sense... I don't think it's obvious though as some may just generally not want to live. :hug:
I don't think there is such a thing as 'generally not wanting to live'. If your next door neighbour wants to live, just swish the wand and say "I wanna be my next door neighbor".
 
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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
453
Therapists/mental health professionals love this one - 'If you had a magic wand that could change anything what would you change to make life worth living?' or 'What does a life worth living look like?'

For me, I think I'm past that. If I had a good job/a partner/kids/ nice house/nice car etc it wouldn't make any difference as I would just use the magic wand to make me disappear.

I'd like to be able to tell my mum that I love her and hear her say she loves me but essentially the magic wand would need to change the entire life that I've led so far and therefore change me. I can try to change my life that is ahead but I can't change what i have already experienced and unfortunately that informs who I am now, the way I think and respond to the world.

If you want to change things that are attainable then I think there is hope still but not so much if you want to change your essential being.
This is exactly where I got this from was my therapist :pfff:. I was just interested what others thought. Hope that doesn't make me seem like a dick. That's an interesting answer. I would personally change my whole self if I had the chance.
 
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Iwantoutrightnow

Experienced
Jun 27, 2019
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They see it as a problem solving exercise to make you see that change is not impossible and that the things that are causing you to be miserable can change and life can get better.

They come a bit unstuck when the things you need to change are more than materialistic or situational.

Hope that doesn't make me seem like a dick

Not at all :heart:
 
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deadpixels

Student
May 2, 2020
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I don't think there is such a thing as 'generally not wanting to live'. If your next door neighbour wants to live, just swish the wand and say "I wanna be my next door neighbor".
But can we be sure that our neighbor will want to live for the rest of his life? If the magic wand also offers the option of never having existed in the first place, wouldn't you consider it a good choice as well?
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
Nov 17, 2019
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But can we be sure that our neighbor will want to live for the rest of his life? If the magic wand also offers the option of never having existed in the first place, wouldn't you consider it a good choice as well?
No. You will have enough time to be dead in the future
 
Bct

Bct

Disqualified from Being Human
Apr 20, 2020
419
For me, it would be:
  • Having some close friends, also a girl I love who loves me back (too many unrequited loves)
  • Financially stable so I don't have to worry too much about what I can buy
  • Having some marketable skills and artistic talents so I could enjoy my life more and not feeling useless
  • Losing my anxiety and mental traumas that hold me back
But if the magic wand could give me all of these yet I'm still feeling suicidal, I guess I know what's my next wish is.
 
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mathieu

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Jun 5, 2019
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I would wish to get rid of my schizoaffective, add, anxiety and sleep problems
Also to wish that I could be a good student
And that I could fall in love and be loved in return. No commitment issues
To be handsome and slim
To have a good personality so I will have friends
Infinite money
 
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DeathNoot

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I would probably change nearly everything...
 
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4eyebiped

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Dec 28, 2019
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Yeah, I had a totally different idea of what this thread was going to be about when reading the title, Magic Wand. I thought we were going to show off our various toy arsenals.

But, to be on topic. I think if I could had changed my perspective on things, at an early age, it would had made a unimaginable change on my life. I have learned how powerful perspective and perception is. The inaccurate and wrong view on both can easily take down the greatest of them all.
 
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The Dark Chaos

Craving chaos..
Apr 17, 2020
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I would just swashhhh my wandd and disappear completelyyy!!
 
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Meowkin

Student
May 6, 2020
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If there was a magic wand that existed that could change all your problems...

Would you wish you were dead....

Or would you change your life? If so what would you change?

  • I would wish for supportive parents that validated my feelings
  • I would wish to forget my traumas
  • I would wish that I didn't have depression, anxiety, PTSD, Complex grief and psychosis
  • I would wish for the best support for my Autism that would enable me to live the life that I want to live
  • I would wish that I wasn't afraid to be myself and that I didn't hate myself
  • I would wish the only person that mattered to me was still alive
  • And finally I would wish that I mattered to someone else and that my life was worth living
Those would be a miracle.
If there was a fairy godmother, I wish she'd wave it for you.
 
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Ghostmedic

Member
May 18, 2020
20
For me, I think I'm past that. If I had a good job/a partner/kids/ nice house/nice car etc it wouldn't make any difference as I would just use the magic wand to make me disappear.

This part is so brutal and true.
I'm not sure everyone in this particular situation has a full understanding of it yet. Many still live with the fantasy that "money" or "relationships" are what's wrong and if they just won the lottery or fell in love all would be better, but the fact is, at some point for some of us, it's very deep and existential in nature, and life is pointless whether rich or poor, whether heartbroken or in puppy love.
Sure winning the lottery might occupy me for a little while while I find different ways to achieve pleasure from wealth and entertainment, or then some meaning from philanthropy, but these are just temporary stalls, and sooner than later I will come back to the realization that this world is tedious and full of shitty people, and that my purpose in this sick run-on fever dream is long since overwith.
 
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vk1699

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Nov 27, 2019
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I'd live close to my friends, speak my language fluently, be fully integrated into my community, forget my trauma and be completely neurotypical.
 
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