tinyghost
go home at dawn sleep in the sun
- Sep 13, 2023
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ive been planning my death since my last attempt in august. of course i havent told anyone about this, including my therapist. every week i think a lot about telling her. i imagine what i would say. every week i am closer to actually doing it, my plan solidifies, and i want to talk about it. my therapist is the only person in my life i actually talk to. its hard to keep it from her but i know she will hospitalize me (she has done it before). i wish i could just talk about it because its really what i need to talk about, and how i feel that makes me want to kill myself, but it will definitely put a halt to my plans. my husband also asks me regularly if im thinking of offing myself again. i always tell him no. does anyone else struggle with lying to ppl close to them?