Haha... Your diagnosis sounds a lot like a provocation. OK, I'll bite.
I was aware people were either disgusted or happy to see me CTB'ing in public, but I was too enraged to be able to care about their approval. For me, the most disturbing & humiliating part of my "episode" was its beginning - I got a splitting headache & puked & was feeling so worthless & unbelievably despised by the man who'd finally managed to push me over the edge after slandering me for months that I actually cried out (not literally, ofc), "Why do you hate me so much? Why are you doing this to me? Why can't you just leave me alone already?"
I know I've said this a thousand times, but I really do have fucking C-PTSD because my fucking father fucked & beat me for ten years as a child & when people like me feel seriously threatened they sometimes say childish things. Their body convulses, their head explodes & they cry & vomit & piss & shit their pants like little children. Those who think I'm exaggerating can read a couple of Persephone's (@LastLoveLetter) devastating threads about what childhood sexual abuse has done to her.
If I'd managed to delete my "melodramatic comment" before another user quoted it (to patronize & mock me for saying things that I in my usual state of mind know only a child would say; my IQ isn't in single digits), I wouldn't have gotten furious with myself for sounding like a big baby & gone on a rampage. I knew I was spewing vitriol, but I was unable to stop myself. That's my side of the story, the other guy's free to tell his. I'm definitely never going to interact with him again. Especially if I get banned, which could still happen.