Lost my beloved gf

[Canon1]

Hi!

Two months ago my gf broke up with me because i lied to her and once cheated on her. I told her about this mistake because i wanted to clarify everything but i shouldn't have done. She left me and i can't deal with it. Every day seems like a fight to me that i can't emotionally win. This was the reason i decided to commit suicide but still haven't done it. I told her 1000 times that this was the biggest mistake in my life and I will never disappoint her again but no way, she says that it's over and i can't deal with it.
I reached a point in which i just feel pure sadness. It seems to me that this is one stadium before death and i am coming nearer towards the end because i can't feel any happiness anymore.

It seems to me that this is a complete different state of mind that consist of nothing else but sadness and i know other people like you have reached that same point.

Just my 2 cents

 

[S1mpleme]

I'm sorry, but I don't have respect to you and what you've done, despite your feelings. I understand those who sick and has really difficult life, but you're not of them. All you needed is just love her and now you have what you have. I never lied or cheated to any person I loved in my life and I won't, I've appreciated every day I spent with my beloved. Just love, be honest and kind - that simple.

 

[Final Escape]

. To help boost your optimism lol! Just learn from your mistakes and u will have to meet a new girl. I know it sucks, but u fucked up and u have to just move on. I fucked something up recently too and I'm not over it yet.

 

[Glockman]

I'm sorry, but I don't have respect to you and what you've done, despite your feelings. I understand those who sick and has really difficult life, but you're not of them. All you needed is just love her and now you have what you have. I never lied or cheated to any person I loved in my life and I won't, I've appreciated every day I spent with my beloved. Just love, be honest and kind - that simple.

People make mistakes. He admitted them. That's more than most do. Go easy on him.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

If suicide is your reaction to what is a healthy and normal response (leaving someone who lies and cheats on you) then i think you should reconsider. She won't feel much differently about it even if you do kill yourself - i promise.

 

[Ark]

It is not for anyone to judge another persons feelings or reasons for wanting to CTB. I don't care how perfect you think you are. And if all your going to do is judge someone at the time they are looking for help to whatever extent you should just keep your comments to yourself.

I am sorry you are so heartbroken. I know the feeling and it is terrible. I would suggest you give yourself more time to make sure of how you feel. And if you are young you will be surprised at how easy another you could love might come along. And you can take the lessons you have learned from the mistakes you made with your ex to make sure you don't do it again.

It is at least worth giving yourself time to make sure of everything. And see what else might come along in your life.

Always remember that everyone makes mistakes, it's how we learn from them that defines us.

 

[Lonely Music]

I think a breakup can be a catalyst to put someone over the edge. It's likely not just the breakup that is the only problem, there are many other things. For me, my breakup just confirmed that something is definitely wrong with me. My point is I think it's wrong to say that there are reasons why or why someone shouldn't ctb.

 

[Nem]

Awww just move on. It happened and you'll find someone else and lesson learned...
Peace/hugs

 

[Fragile]

so you love her, then cheated on her and now you want to commit suicide because she wont take you back. don't you think that it will do her even more damage to know that her not accepting you after you betrayed her was the reason why you died?

i'm sorry that you are feeling so depressed about it, but i can't respect the way you think at all. i believe that anyone should be able to take their own lives regardless of their reasons because you are entitled to your own existence, but i also believe that this is just impulsive and selfish, imagine what you had felt if it was the other way around. if you cheated on her then what's the guarantee that you wont do it again? some people say that a cheater will always be a cheater and i completely believe that, but some people can also change.

you are free to do whatever you want with your live and completely ignore what i'm about to say, but just move on, affection and attraction are feelings that you can feel for people other than her, you may not believe it right now, but there is so much more to life than just having a couple, there are quite literally millions of girls better than her and i can say that without even knowing her because this is a fact, you will find someone that you'll feel in love with eventually if you keep searching, and then have a wonderful life if you learn from your mistakes.

 

[PwincessStepford]

This is your fault. The best you can do is move on now. Don't you think your ex gf deserves better than someone who cheats on her?

 

[Lefty]

I might have lost mine, due to dealing mental illness. The thoughts in my head just caused me to snap. I wish I could get them out of my head. Maybe I just needed a little space. I don't know. Maybe a small break might help. As for regarding the original posters, think about it, but don't let it ruin you. Sometimes we make rash decisions without thinking about it, it happens.

 

[Canon1]

How could I be so stupid and tell her? What did I expect? I hate myself

 

[Hopeindeath!]

It is possible that she could forgive you in time. Meanwhile you could keep being her friend, and be there when she needs someone.

 

[Canon1]

She doesn't want to see me, so i can't meet her.

 

[Glockman]

so you love her, then cheated on her and now you want to commit suicide because she wont take you back. don't you think that it will do her even more damage to know that her not accepting you after you betrayed her was the reason why you died?

i'm sorry that you are feeling so depressed about it, but i can't respect the way you think at all. i believe that anyone should be able to take their own lives regardless of their reasons because you are entitled to your own existence, but i also believe that this is just impulsive and selfish, imagine what you had felt if it was the other way around. if you cheated on her then what's the guarantee that you wont do it again? some people say that a cheater will always be a cheater and i completely believe that, but some people can also change.

you are free to do whatever you want with your live and completely ignore what i'm about to say, but just move on, affection and attraction are feelings that you can feel for people other than her, you may not believe it right now, but there is so much more to life than just having a couple, there are quite literally millions of girls better than her and i can say that without even knowing her because this is a fact, you will find someone that you'll feel in love with eventually if you keep searching, and then have a wonderful life if you learn from your mistakes.

"I can't respect the way you think at all."

Don't ever reply to my threads at all. I don't need your "empathy."

 

[Hopeindeath!]

She doesn't want to see me, so i can't meet her.

I'm sorry she doesn't want to see you. Maybe you can find a way to do nice things for her without seeing her. I hope she forgives you and gives you a second chance.

 

[Manja]

When I broke up with a guy who cheated he threatened with a suicide and I was like go ahead I don't care...but actually monogamy is not natural lol

 

[Polka]

I understand that it is hard for you now because I lost someone five months ago and I could not see a way out of the gargantuan pain but it is getting easier. I never thought it would at the time.

There is some good news in this situation in that you learned the consequences of lying and cheating. Of course I do not know what lead up to those acts and who is to blame for what etc, etc. Even if you did not lie and cheat she might have left anyway due to other factors.

My 2 cents is take it day by day and keep busy if you can. You can grow from this and be a better person for the next woman to enter you life. Even if the new woman then lies and cheats on you at least you will have grown and without growth what are we?

 

[Soul]

It's virtually impossible to have relationships with other people without ever hurting someone and without ever getting hurt. @Canon1, you can learn from this and navigate better in the future. The lady you hurt deserves time to come to terms with things, and as @Hopeindeath! said you can look for ways to be a good friend to her even from a distance.

Killing yourself over this would be too hard on both of you. Even if you feel like you "deserve" it, don't do that to her. If you still want to commit suicide later on, you'll always have that option. But for now give her and yourself time. x

 

[OvertheRainbeaux]

I respect that you told the truth about it that's honestly better than her finding out on her own and just keeping it hidden so that you still have her in your life.
Regardless, she has a right to her decision to leave if you haven't been faithful - doesn't make you an all around bad person so don't give up on yourself just yet.
IMO you will be okay. Maybe things will come back together but if not then that is what is meant to be for you two. Like others have said in this thread take it as a lesson learned.

 

[Elbarado]

Hi!

Two months ago my gf broke up with me because i lied to her and once cheated on her. I told her about this mistake because i wanted to clarify everything but i shouldn't have done. She left me and i can't deal with it. Every day seems like a fight to me that i can't emotionally win. This was the reason i decided to commit suicide but still haven't done it. I told her 1000 times that this was the biggest mistake in my life and I will never disappoint her again but no way, she says that it's over and i can't deal with it.
I reached a point in which i just feel pure sadness. It seems to me that this is one stadium before death and i am coming nearer towards the end because i can't feel any happiness anymore.

It seems to me that this is a complete different state of mind that consist of nothing else but sadness and i know other people like you have reached that same point.

Just my 2 cents

Hey it surly hurts a lot and and you blame yourself for the situation and you dont know how to go on with your mistake or without her, but dont rush things.
I know it ll be hard to read, but you fucked it up! You lied and cheated her, BUT dont fuck up the biggest thing you have, your life, b/c of your mistake.
Take your time, think about, cry, feel sad, feel angry , and so on and after a while you check your mood again. Maybe she will miss you too in that time, maybe not.maybe you come over it, maybe you meet a new girl and this time you learned from your mistakes.