PapaYeehaw
Indecisive 🧘♀️
- Nov 28, 2021
- 33
I have a method that I think will work. I'm so depressed it's insane. I had to move away from my hometown into my parents house 5 months ago. I had a short relationship with a person I've known for years and have had feelings for, but of course, he left. The long distance relationship he chose and asked me to be in became too much for him.
A few weeks later, I visited my hometown and reconnected with a man I was with for 3 years, and lived with for most of that. He told me he loved me and that we were soulmates and he'd do anything to be with me. We were doing well for a while and would call regularly. I felt like I was beginning to have a purpose. Recently, he became not like himself and told me that he was actually not into women anymore and called me childish for not wanting to stay friends. I finally agreed that we could still be friends, since he was the closest person to me, but he just wants space right now and maybe forever. To make matters worse, my one source of happiness, my Xbox, randomly broke.
I'm now 22 and thousands of miles away from my old life with no friends, no job, no car, and no hope. I'm planning on ending it soon. I wanna be drunk while I do it, but since I live with my parents, I'll have to do the salt, coffee filter, hand sanitizer method to get drunk.
A few weeks later, I visited my hometown and reconnected with a man I was with for 3 years, and lived with for most of that. He told me he loved me and that we were soulmates and he'd do anything to be with me. We were doing well for a while and would call regularly. I felt like I was beginning to have a purpose. Recently, he became not like himself and told me that he was actually not into women anymore and called me childish for not wanting to stay friends. I finally agreed that we could still be friends, since he was the closest person to me, but he just wants space right now and maybe forever. To make matters worse, my one source of happiness, my Xbox, randomly broke.
I'm now 22 and thousands of miles away from my old life with no friends, no job, no car, and no hope. I'm planning on ending it soon. I wanna be drunk while I do it, but since I live with my parents, I'll have to do the salt, coffee filter, hand sanitizer method to get drunk.
