ClownMe
Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
- Apr 7, 2021
- 20,561
The last month and a bit have been the worst, I don't see any way back from this sadly.
Nothing brings me joy anymore, I have nothing to look forward to anymore, I'm just simply surviving for the sake of living another day, it's not living. I've tried all sorts of different things over the years to try and kick my depression and nothing has worked, i'm broken.
I just wish I could go, the only reason i'm still alive right now is because i cant leave my dog. It's a surreal feeling when you come to the realisation that you're just making up time until the time is right to ctb.
I'm over people that claim life is a miracle, I understand that for some people it may be, but for a lot of people, like me, despite our best attempts, it isn't a miracle for us, it's a nightmare.
Nothing brings me joy anymore, I have nothing to look forward to anymore, I'm just simply surviving for the sake of living another day, it's not living. I've tried all sorts of different things over the years to try and kick my depression and nothing has worked, i'm broken.
I just wish I could go, the only reason i'm still alive right now is because i cant leave my dog. It's a surreal feeling when you come to the realisation that you're just making up time until the time is right to ctb.
I'm over people that claim life is a miracle, I understand that for some people it may be, but for a lot of people, like me, despite our best attempts, it isn't a miracle for us, it's a nightmare.