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Parnate
Student
- Dec 16, 2021
- 174
I am male, 28, jobless, I stay alone and supported by my family. My family is otherwise nice but they are antimedicine and totally against psychiatry. So without the knowledge of my family, I go to a charitable hospital that offers free psychiatric consultation since I can't afford a private one.
Well , I recently was started on buspirone for depression and anxiety and it really helped a lot. Like I could even do the tasks I dreaded and hated. But like most antidepressants it too raised my hunger and made me Binge on food. My psychiatrist doesn't believe it. So I started using metformin to counter the excess hunger and metformin did help, but it again worsened my depression and fatigue.
Coincidentally I got a call from a company I had applied for a job . This company asked me to be on trial period of 3 days. Starting since the past Thursday. I went on Thursday but I wanted to run away within the first few hours. Somehow I stretched myself and completed the day. But on the next day I didn't go there. And nor did I go today. I quit metformin after that and I am solely on buspirone and trying to find something that can normalize my appetite.
I had informed my family about this trial period. I am lying to my family about it. I told them that I am going there when infact I am here in my home on bed doing nothing
I feel guilty and horrible about it now. Why is my body such almost every medication I try ends up doing the same raising my appetite and weight. If there is a God I really hate him for making me this ways.
As for the job, The work isn't really good. Also working overtime with no extra pay for overtime is a norm of that company , I was informed of that before .
Well I have set a deadline of June this year cause as per astrology I am having a bad period until April. If by June end I am not able to get my shit under control then ctb it is.
Well , I recently was started on buspirone for depression and anxiety and it really helped a lot. Like I could even do the tasks I dreaded and hated. But like most antidepressants it too raised my hunger and made me Binge on food. My psychiatrist doesn't believe it. So I started using metformin to counter the excess hunger and metformin did help, but it again worsened my depression and fatigue.
Coincidentally I got a call from a company I had applied for a job . This company asked me to be on trial period of 3 days. Starting since the past Thursday. I went on Thursday but I wanted to run away within the first few hours. Somehow I stretched myself and completed the day. But on the next day I didn't go there. And nor did I go today. I quit metformin after that and I am solely on buspirone and trying to find something that can normalize my appetite.
I had informed my family about this trial period. I am lying to my family about it. I told them that I am going there when infact I am here in my home on bed doing nothing
I feel guilty and horrible about it now. Why is my body such almost every medication I try ends up doing the same raising my appetite and weight. If there is a God I really hate him for making me this ways.
As for the job, The work isn't really good. Also working overtime with no extra pay for overtime is a norm of that company , I was informed of that before .
Well I have set a deadline of June this year cause as per astrology I am having a bad period until April. If by June end I am not able to get my shit under control then ctb it is.