My first post,so go easy on me.
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for many years, though only diagnosed 5 years ago. I've been off work in and out for periods of up to 6 months or more at a time, been on the psych ward 3 times and attempted to end my life twice.I have been obsessed with suicide and ending my life.
After my latest spell in hospital I currently am on lithium, mirtazapine and venlafaxine and thought for a while i was improving. Not long after medication changes my thoughts of suicide are obsessive as ever.
3 weeks ago after just returning to work after my most recent absence I came home to find my partner of 26 years had left me a note explaining they needed time away to sort out their life and what they wanted for the future, after years of dealing with my illness,suicide attempts and also dealing with the whole lockdown and covid.
I was devastated! They basically took everything they owned and left without a trace. I and am struggling to process this and all I can think of now is fuck it! Whats the point? they even took our cat!
I found this site while Googleing suicide and methods and have been lurking for about a month before joining.I panicked when the site disappeared.
I was thinking of jumping from the Cliffs Of Moher but now with lockdown I can't get across the border without a valid reason. Maybe I'll just try partial?
I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for many years, though only diagnosed 5 years ago. I've been off work in and out for periods of up to 6 months or more at a time, been on the psych ward 3 times and attempted to end my life twice.I have been obsessed with suicide and ending my life.
After my latest spell in hospital I currently am on lithium, mirtazapine and venlafaxine and thought for a while i was improving. Not long after medication changes my thoughts of suicide are obsessive as ever.
3 weeks ago after just returning to work after my most recent absence I came home to find my partner of 26 years had left me a note explaining they needed time away to sort out their life and what they wanted for the future, after years of dealing with my illness,suicide attempts and also dealing with the whole lockdown and covid.
I was devastated! They basically took everything they owned and left without a trace. I and am struggling to process this and all I can think of now is fuck it! Whats the point? they even took our cat!
I found this site while Googleing suicide and methods and have been lurking for about a month before joining.I panicked when the site disappeared.
I was thinking of jumping from the Cliffs Of Moher but now with lockdown I can't get across the border without a valid reason. Maybe I'll just try partial?
