Help losing the pleasures of life

[stormrOzzy]

I can't watch series, movies or soap operas.
Everything seems boring and I don't feel pleasure, now I'm losing the pleasure of listening to music, I can't choose and all seems boring, boring.

Does anyone go through this too? Is there a way to change it? Life is already bad and losing these pleasures only makes everything worse. I don't know what to do

 

[Rachel74]

I get like this when I'm on a very depressive state of my bipolar, my salvation then is sleep until I feel better.

 

[EatingRawCocoa]

Stuck that way for the last year. I always say that I envy those who are suicidally depressed. I miss that. I gain no enjoyment from anything because I feel next to no emotion any more. I no longer read, I no longer watch movies, I no longer cook. There is nothing at all that interests or excites me any more. When I kill myself it won't be out of sadness. It will be because life now has no value whatsoever to me. I am nothing more than an eating, shitting, sleeping lump of ageing and ugly organic matter.

Please remove my username if you quote.

 

[stormrOzzy]

I get like this when I'm on a very depressive state of my bipolar, my salvation then is sleep until I feel better.

I have been like this so recently, so I try to sleep too bad is insomnia .... it is very strange to lose these pleasures

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I can't watch series, movies or soap operas.
Everything seems boring and I don't feel pleasure, now I'm losing the pleasure of listening to music, I can't choose and all seems boring, boring.

Does anyone go through this too? Is there a way to change it? Life is already bad and losing these pleasures only makes everything worse. I don't know what to do

Sounds like you have apathy and anhedonia I made a thread about it a while back

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/apathy-and-anhedonia.19300/

I feel the same way as a teenager I sometimes would listen to chillstep music for 1½ hour just relaxing and enjoying it kind of like meditation now I don´t feel anything the same with video games they are so boring to me now and I have played video games since I was a child.

 

[stormrOzzy]

Stuck that way for the last year. I always say that I envy those who are suicidally depressed. I miss that. I gain no enjoyment from anything because I feel next to no emotion any more. I no longer read, I no longer watch movies, I no longer cook. There is nothing at all that interests or excites me any more. When I kill myself it won't be out of sadness. It will be because life now has no value whatsoever to me. I am nothing more than an eating, shitting, sleeping lump of ageing and ugly organic matter.

I'm afraid of being like this. Life is bad and I feel the desire to die gets closer and closer this way

 

[BipolarExpat]

I get like this when I'm on a very depressive state of my bipolar, my salvation then is sleep until I feel better.

Me too but....body/mind won't allow me to sleep much. One reason is probably because I'm so lethargic. Round and round it goes.

 

[burnedCookie]

I'm like that 24/24 now, it's called anhedonia. I've always been like this since I was very young but with the years it became worse.
I don't enjoy anything anymore. Even the books or movies I loved seem totally stupid and senseless today. It's so hard to get through the day when nothing interests you.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Same. Video games, movies, music, traveling, books ... It means nothing. I just enjoy eating and drinking. I played guitar for 8 hours a day when I was young. I sold my guitar and my equipment a year ago. I don't think I'd play if they put the most expensive computer and the best game in the world. 18 years ago I played Diablo on PS1. I played 36 hours in a row. There were times when I really enjoyed life. Now I feel like I'm on another planet. I'm moving my ass from place to place.

 

[Hyakkimaru]

I don't enjoy very many things anymore either although a couple of the only reasons I'm hanging on right now is because of my ctb backup plan and regular drug use. (for me just weed and a lot of booze.) I don't know if I really recommend it, but for me it's one of the easiest ways of coping. I wish you luck friend.

 

[alexithymia]

I feel the exact same way. These last few days I've just been sitting and reading about suicide methods. I can't watch TV or movies or read books. I simply can't stay focused. I feel like my life is already over.

 

[Rachel74]

Me too but....body/mind won't allow me to sleep much. One reason is probably because I'm so lethargic. Round and round it goes.

I am the same without my benzos. I always keep some stashed away for time like this and it's getting more frequent.

 

[BipolarExpat]

Such mixed feelings on this thread.

Yeah, we're not "alone" in having these issues...,yet it's still so sad. Wouldn't wish this loss of pleasure on anyone.

Never mind tv, movies, music, etc. I lost taste for ALL food/drink some time ago....showers, (even a crap) doesn't do anything for my pleasure receptors any longer.

What a nightmare.

 

[Darkhaven]

Yep depression and disease took the already small pleasure i had in living.
Music is probably the only thing i got left. And eating shit of course, that never gets old.
All the other things i used to enjoy have become a chore.

 

[k75]

Never mind tv, movies, music, etc. I lost taste for ALL food/drink some time ago....showers, (even a crap) doesn't do anything for my pleasure receptors any longer.

What a nightmare.

This is the point where it finally broke me. I used to love to cook and be quite good at it. Now my sense of taste is mostly gone, or at least seems permanently altered. Food isn't enjoyable anymore, and forget cooking much of anything... If I can't taste it, I can't even tell if my meals are failures or not. I can't serve what I make to other people if it tastes bad. It at least tastes bad to me, so who the hell knows? It's a massive loss to me.

Physical sensations are extremely dull, if they're there at all. It's almost like I'm trying to feel through a layer jello or something. Like there's a barrier between me and the sensation. So unless the sensation is super strong, I really can't feel it.

I can't deal with these things on top of everything else. My doctors just shrug and tell me sometimes that happens with depression. I can't express to anyone how bad it actually is, and that frustrates me to tears.

 

[BipolarExpat]

I can't deal with these things on top of everything else. My doctors just shrug and tell me sometimes that happens with depression. I can't express to anyone how bad it actually is, and that frustrates me to tears.

Right there with you. I used to enjoy cooking quite a bit as well. These days I can't even grocery shop effectively(!)

*sigh*

 

[justanotherday]

This is the point where it finally broke me. I used to love to cook and be quite good at it. Now my sense of taste is mostly gone, or at least seems permanently altered. Food isn't enjoyable anymore, and forget cooking much of anything... If I can't taste it, I can't even tell if my meals are failures or not. I can't serve what I make to other people if it tastes bad. It at least tastes bad to me, so who the hell knows? It's a massive loss to me.

Physical sensations are extremely dull, if they're there at all. It's almost like I'm trying to feel through a layer jello or something. Like there's a barrier between me and the sensation. So unless the sensation is super strong, I really can't feel it.

I can't deal with these things on top of everything else. My doctors just shrug and tell me sometimes that happens with depression. I can't express to anyone how bad it actually is, and that frustrates me to tears.

 

[Nem]

Felt this way for over half a decade. Suffered serious damage from meds incorrectly prescribed and ever since then I lost interest in pretty much everything. Sorry to hear that you are experiencing the same, planning my suicide as it's the only way I can fix this
Peace/hugs

 

[justanotherday]

So sorry you suffer, and I no longer enjoy anything in life either. So, what is the point if there is no enjoyment to be had?

 

[TAW122]

Yes, throughout my life I have lost these pleasures, or I'd like to call them, copes in my life. Just this year, I have lost some good coping material from someone that I really looked up to and sadly, she stopped producing said content. Another thing is losing access to things that bring me joy in life.

 

[justanotherday]

All of life is redundant. It's all just another day... rinse, repeat...

 

[spanishguy22]

I don't enjoy anything. Each year robbed a chuck of joy that i got from movies, videogames (my passion), etc.
I have nothing. so many years living this shit

 

[miseras]

Today a weird thought occurred to me. You know how this sudden ideas are sometimes illuminating and life changing so let me explain...
It's three years now I can't feel any pleasure, and when both music and books (my last resource lifelines) fails keeping me company and become distasteful too, boy it's hard!
But today I noticed that my body still has some feelings, like goosebumps during a song, or salivation thinking of a food.
It's my soul that doesn't react: still bored by the song, that food, if I try it, still tastes like cardboard.
I would like to know if your body still seems to react to some stimulation and it's just your mind being numb to pleasures.

 

[stormrOzzy]

I don't enjoy very many things anymore either although a couple of the only reasons I'm hanging on right now is because of my ctb backup plan and regular drug use. (for me just weed and a lot of booze.) I don't know if I really recommend it, but for me it's one of the easiest ways of coping. I wish you luck friend.

thank you friend!
I used marijuana and drinks for a long time. So I started to feel a little harmed and now I'm trying to soften the consumption. I admit it helped me a lot, so I don't regret it. I love to smoke weed.

I feel the exact same way. These last few days I've just been sitting and reading about suicide methods. I can't watch TV or movies or read books. I simply can't stay focused. I feel like my life is already over.

it's like the days are repeated

Felt this way for over half a decade. Suffered serious damage from meds incorrectly prescribed and ever since then I lost interest in pretty much everything. Sorry to hear that you are experiencing the same, planning my suicide as it's the only way I can fix this
Peace/hugs

this is very bad ! : /

peace!!

Today a weird thought occurred to me. You know how this sudden ideas are sometimes illuminating and life changing so let me explain...
It's three years now I can't feel any pleasure, and when both music and books (my last resource lifelines) fails keeping me company and become distasteful too, boy it's hard!
But today I noticed that my body still has some feelings, like goosebumps during a song, or salivation thinking of a food.
It's my soul that doesn't react: still bored by the song, that food, if I try it, still tastes like cardboard.
I would like to know if your body still seems to react to some stimulation and it's just your mind being numb to pleasures.

yes, he still reacts!