Losing hope

[xoxo24]

I dont post much here, i like to lurk but lately ive just been losing hope in peopel in general, in life, in religion everything really. Ive always been the kind of the person who didnt like being around people and just spend my time on the laptop alone, but lately this just sort of grew into hatred, there's been so much going on regarding my family and they've recently been monitoring how i dress even though im 22 years old, i live in the middle east and its not normal for women here to move out after 18, some awful things have been said to me and behind my back which i find out about later, and it's not even only my family its the people around me in uni and the doctors and just everybody, i just hate people i hate how everyone is just selfish and just rude with no reason and no consideration, i only have like 2 or 3 peopel around me that i trust including my boyfriend, and i just feel stuck, i dont want to ctb because frankly there is no good methods where i live so im just stuck in this life with no hope of it getting better and no kind of praying could ever save me

 

[zappynomore]

what about your boyfriend you trust him enough to talk to him about these feelinsg and that you have?


are you able to say which part of the world you are kind of from?