Venting loosing hope

[UniqueWorm]

im losing hope that it can get better. i was fucked when i was born because of genetics, and then i got more screwed over by traumatic shit. I gueniunly dont remember the last time i didnt feel suicidal. Everything is getting worse, and all that ever happens to fix it is I get put on new meds or sent to the hospital but it dosnt help. I know its going to get worse in the upcoming months because of the timing around the abuse ive faced, and i dont want to be alive to deal with it. it is so draining and horrorific to be constantly reliving every single thing. i cant actually do this for much longer.

 

[HopingOnaMiracle]

I'm sorry man
I can relate except I had happy periods in life before I got chronically depressed.
Don't you have professional help from s therapist or so?

 

[UniqueWorm]

I'm sorry man
I can relate except I had happy periods in life before I got chronically depressed.
Don't you have professional help from s therapist or so?

i do but it dosnt help much

 

[HopingOnaMiracle]

i do but it dosnt help much

Me neither :(
Is there anything you can do that makes you feel a bit better?
Is there a plan to make you better? Medication?