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tj3333
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- Dec 21, 2021
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My friends have started to ignore me and tell me that it's not true but it is. All there is in life is looks and size and if you're not petite and fragile as a woman you're invisible. That's all anybody ever wants are these tiny little women and they'll either put up with a bad personality or a boring personality just to say they have a woman who looks the one way women are allowed to look. I've self harmed over this before. I gave my number to someone after obsessing over it for a few months and it turned out he's with some tiny little skinny boring girl and it's just a constant reminder that I'll never be good enough because the shape of my body isn't what it should be and it wouldn't be right even if I lost weight. My guy friends tell me it doesn't matter but it does, I see the same women receive love all the time and they are really all the same. It's almost mandatory to have a certain look and to conform and be raised a specific way and to act a specific way and if you don't fit into this little tiny box, if you're not some tiny, fragile little thing with nothing to say, nobody wants you. My friends won't talk to me about it anymore and they ignore me and tell me it's not true but it is true. I see it every single day and I don't want to anymore. I still obsess over this guy strictly because he's dating the type of girl that men actually want, the one type of girl that men can actually tolerate because they need someone to show off to their friends. I'm so tired of it, I feel like I'm going to have to settle in my life because of the way that I look.