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Nobodywillremember
New Member
- Apr 11, 2019
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I'm a new user and I read the rules but if I do anything wrong on accident please let me know and I will try and fix it immediately.
To preface I've had multiple attempts beforehand. Majority of those times were from attempted alchohal and sleeping pill overdoses, which really just damaged my liver. I also tried carbon monoxide poisoning but couldnt get the charcoal to light and stay lit. I got a pretty bad headache but that is all. I'm saying this so you all know what I've tried already unsuccesfully. I know the carbon monoxide thing might sound like an excuse or something but I really am just that dumb and doing things without really clear instructions is hard for me. So when it comes to fancy chemical reactions or set ups I probably wont be able to do it correctly.
So for my situation and preferances: I'm currently sleeping on someones coutch and multiple people live hear so it is really hard to find any alone time. I will need to be able to do this in a 4 hour-ish window while everyone is asleep or at work, or I will need to be able to do it outside. I like outside because people I know won't find the body but inside I'll be more comfortable.
I only have 60 dollars on me and won't be getting amy more money in the immediate future. I also have previous suicide attempts so I can't buy a gun even if I had the money.
My biggest thing is comfort. I admittedly have a little bit of fear but pain and discomfort are what is hard for me to work through. I have tried the bag method but as soon as it gets even slightly hard to breathe my body starts fighting to get air.
So what really are my options as far as lethality vs. Comfort while under my insanely low budget?The tallest building near me that I have acess to is an apartment building. The stairs go up 3 stories. Will that be my best bet or does anyone have something that won't be as messy and with a lower risk of leaving me disabled but still alive?
If anyone has any questions about my situatuon, things available to me ot anything like that please ask.
To preface I've had multiple attempts beforehand. Majority of those times were from attempted alchohal and sleeping pill overdoses, which really just damaged my liver. I also tried carbon monoxide poisoning but couldnt get the charcoal to light and stay lit. I got a pretty bad headache but that is all. I'm saying this so you all know what I've tried already unsuccesfully. I know the carbon monoxide thing might sound like an excuse or something but I really am just that dumb and doing things without really clear instructions is hard for me. So when it comes to fancy chemical reactions or set ups I probably wont be able to do it correctly.
So for my situation and preferances: I'm currently sleeping on someones coutch and multiple people live hear so it is really hard to find any alone time. I will need to be able to do this in a 4 hour-ish window while everyone is asleep or at work, or I will need to be able to do it outside. I like outside because people I know won't find the body but inside I'll be more comfortable.
I only have 60 dollars on me and won't be getting amy more money in the immediate future. I also have previous suicide attempts so I can't buy a gun even if I had the money.
My biggest thing is comfort. I admittedly have a little bit of fear but pain and discomfort are what is hard for me to work through. I have tried the bag method but as soon as it gets even slightly hard to breathe my body starts fighting to get air.
So what really are my options as far as lethality vs. Comfort while under my insanely low budget?The tallest building near me that I have acess to is an apartment building. The stairs go up 3 stories. Will that be my best bet or does anyone have something that won't be as messy and with a lower risk of leaving me disabled but still alive?
If anyone has any questions about my situatuon, things available to me ot anything like that please ask.