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notthelifeiimagined
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- Dec 18, 2022
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Feeling extremely low and lonely currently. I've been in bed since Christmas Day morning researching ways to end it all. I never used to be like this even though I've always been on anti depressants etc I usually pick myself up and crack on but I think I've pissed majority of my 'friends' off when I've been too hectic when I'm drunk etc over the years as it tends to release the build up of emotions I have inside. On one hand I argue with myself that they weren't really friends anyway and more just drinking associates that wanted someone to sit with in the pub every weekend but then it doesn't stop me feeling rejected and lonely. I can shut myself off for weeks and never hear off a single one of them. I'm always the one messaging first. I guess I just want to meet new people and try to pick myself back up as I feel like I'm about to lose my mind at any moment. I'm a 34 year old female from the UK. Love animals/reptiles etc