Long break from sasu

[ilovecats]

Took a long break after my attempt with sn one year ago. Around that time I felt completely lost and now looking back at my past posts I'm actually embarrassed of what I've said. I'm glad I took a break from all the suicide stuff even though I could say I feel even more hopeless now. Needed some time to stop thinking obsessively about suicide. Don't get me wrong, I would still do it, but it's too hard for me to do it, I can't force myself and I've learned my lesson. Anyway, I came back here because I'm still extremely lonely :)

 

[whywere]

You are a wonderful soul and I too have no family nor friends, except everyone here, like a huge family to/for me.

Welcome back and lots of hugs, love and beautiful sunny skies.

Walter

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Took a long break after my attempt with sn one year ago. Around that time I felt completely lost and now looking back at my past posts I'm actually embarrassed of what I've said. I'm glad I took a break from all the suicide stuff even though I could say I feel even more hopeless now. Needed some time to stop thinking obsessively about suicide. Don't get me wrong, I would still do it, but it's too hard for me to do it, I can't force myself and I've learned my lesson. Anyway, I came back here because I'm still extremely lonely :)

What went wrong with your SN attempt?

 

[ilovecats]

What went wrong with your SN attempt?

Took meto and oxazepam but couldn't swallow the sn

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Took meto and oxazepam but couldn't swallow the sn

Did you spit it out?

 

[ilovecats]

Did you spit it out?

Yes

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Yes

Are you planning to try again via SN?

 

[ilovecats]

Are you planning to try again via SN?

I'm not sure. But if I had to try again, I would still try with sn

 

[ilovecats]

Sorry to hear it all went bad but at least there's no permanent damage.

What was the oxazepam for or is it a relaxer?

It reduces anxiety

 

[Deleted member 65988]

It reduces anxiety

So you drank the sn and spat it right back out if I understand correctly?

Don't get me wrong, I would still do it, but it's too hard for me to do it, I can't force myself and I've learned my lesson.

Welcome back and take it easy on yourself, it's exhausting to think about ctb most of the time but It's rather unfortunate that you feel even worse now.