Lily (Osako)
Everything all at once
- Jul 30, 2022
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God I'm so lonely. It hurts so much. I hate this.
I feel you. Are you lonely and alone, or lonely in company? These days I don't know which is worse, to be honest. My living situation has me in a weird 3 to 1 split and I almost wish it were just one or the other. "Friends" have mostly all let me fall off their radars for so long and after I expressed needing help that when they rarely finally do turn up, I feel spiteful and don't enjoy interacting. Trying to make new connections is horribly slow going and I keep getting cancelled on. It's been a really gross stew of feelingsGod I'm so lonely. It hurts so much. I hate this.
I have been lonely all my life. I never managed to build connection that would last. Lost contact with friends from HS, university, grad school. Never really built any connection in the work place as well. I try to come out as friendly but in the end people stay away from me. Maybe I am not a very interesting person and I tend to get obsessing about topic when discussing even at a dinner party.God I'm so lonely. It hurts so much. I hate this.
I know I feel the same. Shame there isn't some way all of us could move into a huge mansion and then we could be with each other. Or maybe some CTB resort where we could interact with each other?? AT least being on the internet provides some small measure of relief. Love and hugs to you.God I'm so lonely. It hurts so much. I hate this.
Social anxiety and agoraphobia prevents me from making any real connections. When I tried, I'd either fail or lose them. I've gotten so used to being alone, I prefer it, it's something familiar and safe that I can retreat to. Being out and about, having to interact with large crowds just takes too much of a mental and emotional toll.
Do you ever reach out to people you know like that asking how they are?The reality is that I would love to get a text message from time to time from a friend asking how am I.
I used to do it. BUt after a while it was always me initiating the conversation so I assumed they do not care about me and that I probably bother themDo you ever reach out to people you know like that asking how they are?
That's what I think when they don't answer me, that I hire people, but I don't know for sure, I keep going.I used to do it. BUt after a while it was always me initiating the conversation so I assumed they do not care about me and that I probably bother them
This time the translator did not do a good job. Luckly I speak a little spanish.That's what I think when they don't answer me, that I hire people, but I don't know for sure, I keep going.
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És el que penso jo quan no em contesten, que emprenyo a la gent, però com tampoc ho se del cert segueixo endavant.
Sorry, in Spanish:This time the translator did not do a good job. Luckly I speak a little spanish.