While it's been a while since my last friend death, I feel like my main friend group on a whole ghosted me recently (well more than a month isn't quite recent). The loneliness plus the paranoia around what I did wrong, what is being said, etc, is getting at me deep lately. I've been stuffing the void with work and always having movies or TV on. It isn't so successful but it's a start. That and coming here, and using weighted blankets.
But none of that is likely helpful to you more than me venting back into the thread and empathizing.
I hear you, i feel for you, and I'm hoping that whatever comes next brings you some peace in these moments