Lonely here, lonely everywhere.

[anonbpdgirl]

When I joined this site, I thought that maybe I would find a couple like-minded suffering souls. But I feel lonelier than ever. It seems as though I am always back in high school, the one left out. The loser in the corner. Everyone seems to talk so much, have friends of some sort, on this website. Yet I am still alone. I am always alone. What is it about me, that none of you like? That none of you even care to like?

 

[LonelyLight]

You can chat to me if you like. I've felt the same as you for a while on this site. But now theres one or two people I pm now and then and they are lovely people. You can pm me if you like and we can have a chat about anything

 

[hatelife]

its the same with me, everywhere I go

 

[Haku]

When I joined this site, I thought that maybe I would find a couple like-minded suffering souls. But I feel lonelier than ever. It seems as though I am always back in high school, the one left out. The loser in the corner. Everyone seems to talk so much, have friends of some sort, on this website. Yet I am still alone. I am always alone. What is it about me, that none of you like? That none of you even care to like?

I think me and you would make great friends, your posts seem to resonant alot with things I have gone through, so if you ever feel like it, you can pm me anytime, I might not answer right away, but I will answer you, tell me whatever you want, I'm all eyes, and a good listener

 

[Raggas]

I've never heard of you so no I haven't rejected you. If you want to tallk you can message me.

 

[Rachel74]

I've actually made some good friends on here but I make the effort to message people. Maybe do the same OP.

 

[Return2Dust]

@Lethe, I was surprised by the lack of empathy in your response, then I went back and read previous posts. Your narcissism is off-putting...
"I still consider myself a superior human being. I'm a freethinker, and the smartest person in the room 90% of the time. I run mental laps around people, genuinely. I never felt like I belong here, people are so vapid and uninteresting. I've rarely met one I had any interest in talking to."

 

[Astral316]

I don't make connections anywhere, either... but I don't think I want to at SS... would just make ctb a lot more difficult.

 

[Rachel74]

@Lethe, I was surprised by the lack of empathy in your response, then I went back and read previous posts. Your narcissism is off-putting...
"I still consider myself a superior human being. I'm a freethinker, and the smartest person in the room 90% of the time. I run mental laps around people, genuinely. I never felt like I belong here, people are so vapid and uninteresting. I've rarely met one I had any interest in talking to."

You'll find that right person. I talk to doggy people who reach out in pm etc. Feel free to chat to me, I might bore the tits off you but I'm here. It can be a bit overwhelming on here most of us are here for one reason and that's to find a method and talk freely about suicide.

I don't make connections anywhere, either... but I don't think I want to at SS... would just make ctb a lot more difficult.

That's partly true, but also I hope I'd be spending my last moments with a group of people that actually care.

 

[welshie84]

Your self-pity is nauseating and off-putting, for one. Maybe you could work on that. Though it seems to be rampant on this site.

Pretty sure that's her bpd telling her she's not worth anything. How can she change her condition. Harsh

When I joined this site, I thought that maybe I would find a couple like-minded suffering souls. But I feel lonelier than ever. It seems as though I am always back in high school, the one left out. The loser in the corner. Everyone seems to talk so much, have friends of some sort, on this website. Yet I am still alone. I am always alone. What is it about me, that none of you like? That none of you even care to like?

I don't have any friends here either . Feel free to message me x

 

[hatelife]

Your self-pity is nauseating and off-putting, for one. Maybe you could work on that. Though it seems to be rampant on this site.

not many ppl who like themselves want to ctb, doing that is kind of self hate actually, which is fine, rather hate myself than have ego like the size of jupiter

 

[Rachel74]

I don't make connections anywhere, either... but I don't think I want to at SS... would just make ctb a lot more difficult.

I've not read all the goodbye threads on here as most get by hijacked by others rather than just spending those last few moments with that person on here. But it can be comforting especially for those who have no one.

 

[SinisterKid]

@Lethe, I was surprised by the lack of empathy in your response, then I went back and read previous posts. Your narcissism is off-putting...
"I still consider myself a superior human being. I'm a freethinker, and the smartest person in the room 90% of the time. I run mental laps around people, genuinely. I never felt like I belong here, people are so vapid and uninteresting. I've rarely met one I had any interest in talking to."

Its easy to be the smartest person in the room when you are the only one in it

The type of person who in the real world, I would kick the shit out of simply because I am able to and feel no remorse whatsoever.

However, back to the subject of the OP. It is difficult to make "friends" on the net because for the most part, we only see the written word as the only source of communication, whereas in the real world, we get so much more than that. Throw in a few mental illnesses and the conversation might not be exactly free flowing which is understandable. Hopefully, you can keep posting and slowly get to know a few of us, share your thoughts and experiences so we can get to know you a little as well.

 

[BPD_LE]

Its easy to be the smartest person in the room when you are the only one in it 

Comment of the day right there

 

[LonelyLight]

Your self-pity is nauseating and off-putting, for one. Maybe you could work on that. Though it seems to be rampant on this site.

You aren't coming across very nice. If you don't like what the OP said that's fine. But maybe don't comment, if by doing so, your gonna make someone feel worse.

 

[Rachel74]

Its easy to be the smartest person in the room when you are the only one in it

The type of person who in the real world, I would kick the shit out of simply because I am able to and feel no remorse whatsoever.

However, back to the subject of the OP. It is difficult to make "friends" on the net because for the most part, we only see the written word as the only source of communication, whereas in the real world, we get so much more than that. Throw in a few mental illnesses and the conversation might not be exactly free flowing which is understandable. Hopefully, you can keep posting and slowly get to know a few of us, share your thoughts and experiences so we can get to know you a little as well.

To the OP there are a lot of people who are users. I always try to apply with caution even on here. Please keep posting and send messages. We are here for you

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Communication with people can be so tough when you already feel isolated. There's many people on here who will respond if you reach out to them but we all have to make that effort even if we don't feel like it, especially if we don't feel like it. It can at least be easier on here cus people are often going through similar stuff and you can be more open.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Honestly, it's hard to find someone if you don't see them post much. You don't have to feel alone. Feel free to PM, I would love to talk to you.

 

[Elias]

If you feel like talking about anything, there is a live chat section; sometimes it's inactive but I've had some nice late-night discussions with people over there. Don't hesitate to say hi, cause otherwise it'd be difficult for others to know you want to chat. :) This thread already helped you find people eager to chat up, it shows that reaching out is important even if you consider yourself a lonely person.

 

[WirriumDank]

My PMs are always open. I know what isolation feels like, and I'll try my best to help you feel better, or at the very least help you realize you're not alone anymore. I'm pretty new here but I still love this site and its people regardless.

 

[Gorgon]

Feels :(

 

[First loss]

I mean, life in general is lonely. If you want to talk PM me, I am really lonely these days tbh.

 

[Boonks]

When I joined this site, I thought that maybe I would find a couple like-minded suffering souls. But I feel lonelier than ever. It seems as though I am always back in high school, the one left out. The loser in the corner. Everyone seems to talk so much, have friends of some sort, on this website. Yet I am still alone. I am always alone. What is it about me, that none of you like? That none of you even care to like?

I can relate a lot to this...I was also diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar. Would love to chat.

 

[charlottewilts]

i feel you, OP. i also have a BPD diagnosis, and always feel like a third wheel, a surplus, superfluous. that's just the nature of the disorder. there are some people on here who i'd love to reach out to and talk because they seem kind and interesting, but as @Astral316 said, i don't want to make connections with people because i don't want to hurt them when i CTB. i am not long for this world, but if you're okay with that, i'd love to talk while i'm still here. living with BPD is hellish.

 

[JimFord99]

Also, bare in mind that it may take time to build up a connection. post more and act to other members posts and it will come to you. You need a bit of patience and effort. You can pm members, most will reply.

 

[Jean4]

Speaking only for myself, I am socially awkward. One of the reasons I have no friends. I have never had friends, and I understand your feelings about being the one left out in high school. That brings back memories lol.

I have no friends and family. This message board is the only place I have contact with people in the outside world, as I never leave my apartment.

I understand the loneliness. I also know that this board is comforting. There are people here who understand and feel the same way as I do. It is my social contact. Even if nobody speaks to me.

 

[EatingRawCocoa]

Always open to pm's, from anyone. - preferably ppl in the UK though.

 

[anonbpdgirl]

I've actually made some good friends on here but I make the effort to message people. Maybe do the same OP.

It's a little hard when I can barely get the effort to get out of bed, but...

 

[Rachel74]

It's a little hard when I can barely get the effort to get out of bed, but...

You can still use SS in bed, I know I do x

 

[BPD_LE]

You can still use SS in bed, I know I do x

We all do! Lol xx