Venting Loneliness

[Blowba]

I really can't help at all with being lonely with myself in the aspect of friends and family, I am in a relationship with a person who I truly like and care but overall I still feel alone. I don't want to make the person I am in a relationship be the only social interaction or be the reason in which they don't make me feel lonely. I do have "friends" but it's not really friendships at all it consists more of an acquaintances just the usual hello and goodbye with a small talk. Nothing of the factors that make a friendship at all there is no trust, the loyalty or the mutual benefit of companionship or affection at all. I used to have a group of friends that did not make me feel lonely at all but due to a small mishap I am now alone with myself and thoughts. At first I really believed that this isn't important or just a small thing/bump. Now at night time I grow lonely with myself and my thoughts in reality I cry about this feeling in my room in the dark. I try my best in trying to find friends and putting myself out there but no matter how friendly am to people or present myself I still get pushed and away and rejected. I do understand in my age people do have friends and they really have no obligation in giving me attention or any friendship but it just hurts. It really hurts to be lonely I hate it so much its a huge contribution in which why I am really depressed and suicidal. The fact I just feel alone drifting and not belonging at all it hurts a person self esteem and there overall mental health especially h=since I am a person who is weak and vulnerable to these things

 

[pole]

wow, i actually feel the exact same way for sure. i'm an extrovert, i need to be talking with people or needing to be around people to sort of thrive off their energy, especially when i lack the energy myself, sort of helps uplifts me. an extrovert alone, forced into isolation is probably one of the worst things ever honestly. you know how bad isolation and being alone is for a person like you, but you literally have no choice and often times force urself to be alone even when u dont want to and know how bad it is for you.

and again, similar to you, i had really close friends that i've unfortunately had to cut off due to problems, all within this past year, and iv never felt as alone as i do right now. only acquintances, but that's hardly enough.