living with mental illnesses is hell

[bbye111]

living with mental illness is hell, the meds help with your moods and therapy helps you by teaching you what to do to get better, but your mind is still like so.

ive been trying to better myself recently because i have to hang on before ctb, did things to "better" my mental health but at the end of the day im still my self

problems, i can solve them and all despite how heavy i know i could just try to better them and make them lighter.

but the mind..

i wish to ctb already, its such a pain, a month never felt so long...

 

[disorder]

i feel you. i've been like this for years and everything only goes worse so i'm like yeah i'll ctb and life won't make me more miserable than i am now which is a lot

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really understandable wishing to be free from this world, as it can be so awful and tiring feeling so trapped here. I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[undertheskin]

Yeah same here, it's hard once you realize the meaningless of it all, I still try though despite it all, because there's still the innate will to survive, and it's why it's been so tough to complete the attempt, especially when you don't have access to other means. Hang in there

 

[man_in_red:)]

Thats completely reasonable, some people just lost the lottery of life and are entitled to (or should be) to escape their suffering.