Venting Living sucks

[ThunderBringer]

I honestly can't stand the idea of living. When I'm on the phone with crisis lines and they tell me stuff like "what if you find the right medication?" I think even if I did magically feel better tomorrow, I would still have the desire to kill myself on principle. The life I live is not one worth fighting for. Most everyone in my life would disagree, but it's my life and I should be able to decide when I'm done with it. Why the hell would I want to spend a fuck ton of money on food, insurance, rent, and anything else?? I think that's dumb. I'm so tired of being here.

 

[em4250]

Same, I can't imagine any medication suddenly making me feel like life is worth living. It's like actually incomprehensible to me