To keep pushing until I reach that light at the end of the tunnel. I don't care how long it takes, I'll keep going until I either:
1. Find that light, even if it's not as bright as I wished
2. End up living to my 70s-80s then die of natural causes
My best friend is my main motivation right now, but also I want to prove everyone else wrong and prove myself wrong in the process. To live a decent life where while yes, the struggles won't be washed out forever, but atleast I'll be able to handle them alone, and atleast if I can't I'll ask for a helping hand.