Venting Living for someone else is becoming unbearable

[ClownMe]

Anyone who follows my posts or has read some of my posts would know that basically the only reason im alive right now is because of my 13 year old jack russell, named Frankie.

I promised myself that I wouldn't commit suicide until he passed away, but I've found that no matter how much you love someone it's devastatingly painful to live solely for them.

As much as it pains me to say it, living solely for him has made my life even more excruciating, my mind is constantly tortured, on top of feeling depressed all the time, i can't get the thought of me prematurely leaving and him being alone out of my mind. He would be dead inside, just as i am now if i left him.

I just want to leave, im in so much pain, i cry myself to sleep every night, but at the same time I don't want to leave him.

I don't know what to do and I don't know what im going to do. His health has deteriorated in the last year or so but it's not out of the question that he could live on for another few years. I just don't think I have a few more years left in me, I can't take it.

 

[Smily]

I feel you. I was living for my mom for over 15 years now, but I reached my breaking point. It is not enough anymore to force myself to exist. Living years in pain for someone - is totally not worth it. It's just getting worse and worse with every day - at some point you will just explode. And who knows what's gonna happen then.

 

[9BBN]

Aww, that's so sweet. I'm sorry you're in so much pain. I hope love wins, but sometimes pain is too strong. If you do want to stick it out for Frankie, perhaps the best thing for both of you is to come up with a reason to stay for yourself. Take care.

 

[blue_muse]

It's a tough predicament . But, I definitely hear you on living for someone else becoming unbearable. I'm lucky in the sense that the one person I've stuck around for has shown, in many ways through actions and words, they're not worth it so I don't feel obliged.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I hope if you decide to exit your pup has a good home to enter.

 

[LittleJem]

I'm a big animal lover and this will be controversial: but in ancient Egypt, they did take their pets with them. If his health is deteriorating, it might also be more peaceful for him. Animal lovers, you can send hate my way if you like. My day is not going to get worse.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I could not live just for the sake of somebody else, to me it would be unbearable. I would never personally suffer for the sake of others but I understand you not wanting to leave your dog, it is a difficult situation to be in. I'm sorry you are going through this, I wish you well.

 

[LADY007]

I'm a big animal lover and this will be controversial: but in ancient Egypt, they did take their pets with them. If his health is deteriorating, it might also be more peaceful for him. Animal lovers, you can send hate my way if you like. My day is not going to get worse.

Totally agree.. I have intervened when I saw guy abusing an animal. In this case, maybe your much loved dog could go with you.

 

[Blue_mist]

I don't want to break my mom's heart, now that she is developing early stage of dementia, i feel the path is clear for me now to go ahead with my plan. My thoughts are with you