Living for others

[Soxzl]

I've been living for others for as long as I can remember. The only reason I didn't commit was cause I didn't want to make my family sad. I'm realising now that's it's not getting better. I know that my suicide will make my parents really sad, but should I go trough with it? Because living is so awful.

 

[hungry_ghost]

Only you can make that call, unfortunately.

It is a difficult choice to make.

 

[niiina]

Only you can tell the right time. But you shouldn't live or die for others.
You'll know when you're ready

 

[jodes2]

I'm so sorry you're suffering :( imo it depends on how dependent people on you. If they all have a good support network then it's more acceptable. You need to really think about it, it's obviously a massive decision. Maybe weigh your likelihood of suffering long term versus theirs. That's all I can say really. It's up to you and your situation and that of those around you

 

[FuneralCry]

I could never suffer only for the sake of others personally. It isn't as though I asked to be trapped in this hellish world in the first place anyway. After all grief and loss are simply an inevitable consequence of life being brought here. We will all die and lose everything eventually. Once we die we lack the ability to be aware or care about anything. This is simply inevitable for us all.
But of course it's a personal decision as to what you should do. Only you are the one living your life after all.

 

[Berlioz25]

I'm in a somewhat similar place. I survived an attempt a few months ago. I have been thinking about it a fair amount lately, but my SI has been kicking in, and I don't have the available options I had in the past.

I have one good friend and a sister who have expressed to me how upset they would be if I actually CTB'd. It's difficult. My sister is religious and is pushing me to adopt a belief system I just don't find much interest in.

I can't tell them what a dark and sad worldview I have. But it does make it more complicated, which I hate. I have thought about cutting off contact with them long before I CTB, to blunt the emotional impact.

I'm lucky that I even have two people in my life. I'm not complaining. Just makes CTB difficult.

 

[MollerPlesset]

Most of my savings are gone and I haven't worked in two years. I'm miserably broke and I haven't gotten anything nice for me in so long. But my wife keeps getting more and more stuff and I get so envious and frustrated. I wish I had the courage to CTB because I haven't enjoyed life in so long. Is like all my dreams are crushed but I have to continue to support other people dreams. "How selfish of me to CTB"

 

[hellispink]

Always make yourself this question. Would they do the same for you if they were in your shoes? Would they handle your pain if it was them? Maybe you say yes but you can't be sure anyone else would handle that pain. Being here for others just make us be robots . We gotta decide for ourselves first. Because everyone else even if family they making their lives or they did it already but us is the one hurting so. Just my opinion