Living a nightmare

[lonesomedrifter]

I genuinely feel like I'm living in a nightmare. Nothing feels real to me. I constantly tell myself to wake up. Every day is getting worse.
I found out I am pregnant two days ago with my abuser. I cant leave this situation. I need to wake up and the only way I can is by ctb.
Anybody else experience this?

 

[wondering&wandering]

That sounds like a nightmare for sure. I'm so sorry to hear; I don't know what to even say.

I know nothing about your situation, but if there's anyway at all to get away from your abuser you should. Of course, that's way easier said than done, and you might have physical retrictions from leaving, but if you can help it at all please leave before it continues to get worse.

At the very least, I can't imagine you being able to do what you want (live or ctb in peace) while in the presence of an abuser.

Wishing you peace.

 

[RCan]

Are you able to get away from them? Abuse situations are unbelievably complicated and I know it's sometimes very difficult to do that… so not saying just go just like that if you're not sure. But one thing that is definitley true is that one of the only ways to feel better when affected by abuse is to leave…. I'm nervous even writing this because I know how complex it can be to leave sometimes and also don't want you to put yourself in danger.

I genuinely feel like I'm living in a nightmare. Nothing feels real to me. I constantly tell myself to wake up. Every day is getting worse.
I found out I am pregnant two days ago with my abuser. I cant leave this situation. I need to wake up and the only way I can is by ctb.
Anybody else experience this?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yeah I feel like I'm in a nightmare too

 

[RCan]

I genuinely feel like I'm living in a nightmare. Nothing feels real to me. I constantly tell myself to wake up. Every day is getting worse.
I found out I am pregnant two days ago with my abuser. I cant leave this situation. I need to wake up and the only way I can is by ctb.
Anybody else experience this?

Wishing you all the best in the world

Yeah I feel like I'm in a nightmare too

i'm curious about your tagline… extreme pain is much worse than you know… no pressure to say anything about it if you don't want to though

 

[lonesomedrifter]

I feel like im stuck. I have no family or close friends anymore. He is the only person I have. I am so deprived of love and attention, and everytime he is remotely nice 1% of the time, I get like addicted. Most of the times he ignores me and my feelings. I tried to leave, but I keep coming back because he acts nice to me again, and also blackmails me whenever I tried to leave. I wish I could be with my parents again, I miss them and my siblings. This is what I mean with my nightmare. I just want to wake up and wake up in my parents house, wake up to the smell of bread my mother made every morning and the TV sounds of my little toddler brother. What I would do to get that life back.

Are you able to get away from them? Abuse situations are unbelievably complicated and I know it's sometimes very difficult to do that… so not saying just go just like that if you're not sure. But one thing that is definitley true is that one of the only ways to feel better when affected by abuse is to leave…. I'm nervous even writing this because I know how complex it can be to leave sometimes and also don't want you to put yourself in dange

 

[RCan]

I feel like im stuck. I have no family or close friends anymore. He is the only person I have. I am so deprived of love and attention, and everytime he is remotely nice 1% of the time, I get like addicted. Most of the times he ignores me and my feelings. I tried to leave, but I keep coming back because he acts nice to me again, and also blackmails me whenever I tried to leave. I wish I could be with my parents again, I miss them and my siblings. This is what I mean with my nightmare. I just want to wake up and wake up in my parents house, wake up to the smell of bread my mother made every morning and the TV sounds of my little toddler brother. What I would do to get that life back.

Ok… I understand all of what you're saying here… I really do… it can be really very hard for people to get themselves out of this… but just so you know…. there is absolutely no reason at all to feel any kind of loyalty to him… when people treat others like this they are literally putting their lives at risk. Long term coercive control can be fatal to people… just the mental health toll alone. It comes from a place inside people of low empathy, aggression, and a state of mind where they have made themselves incapable of seeing or truly caring about the fact that the other person is a separate person with needs and wants of their own. Very dangerous, and means they will push people to do what they want even if it could have very severe consequences for them (even their life). I have been in a number of really healthy relationships in my life and this is by no means "normaI" - lots of healthy people out there who wouldn't go near behaviours like these in relationships and genuinely give a shit and support their partners decisions & boundaries. I won't go on for ages, but just to point out there are a bunch of helplines and services out there that won't like push you to do anything in particular but can talk you through all your options and help you to make a plan going forward as well, based on what you want. DA helplines, rape crisis centres etc.