My advice is do some more posting, commenting on other's threads to get your post count up, so that you can get the search option opened up to you. Then you can search and find the information you seek. There are lots of ways one can CTB ranging from jumping from a building, to ingesting a poison, to shooting yourself in the head. If you feel it may help you, seek out help first. Maybe it can turn your life around. Suicide is a big decision, probably the biggest decision you can make in your lifetime. If there's even a chance that you can turn your life around, you owe it to yourself to try that first. You can always revisit suicide at a later date.