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call me jvne
- Dec 8, 2023
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so, I won't name them or use their proper pronouns bc it's a big big trigger for me, but I wanted to vent about it and hopefully get some feedback, I don't get triggered by other peoples experiences so you can also share your own if you relate to me in any way.
I was abused throughout multiple years and occasions when I was a child and growing up by someone that I still share a home with. this someone also suffered experiences of abuse but by strangers and other people in their life much later after what they did to me.
it seems they have forgotten or denied the fact they abused me, because they're so easy to open up about their abuse experiences with me and this always baffles and conflicts me. I show them empathy and listen, and they have no idea of what my true feelings are. but i could never, ever address it, I don't know how much worse it would be to share a home with them if the topic is revived.
I just, hate it and it pains me. their acts have put me through so much suffering and distrust, exploitation and addiction, fear and insecurity, made me genuinely homophobic, I just recently also deducted that their actions must've caused my bed wetting at 7 years old. so now can I truly ever forgive them, should I? I feel like I act like I have, but deep deep down, I just have come to hate them.
does anyone else go through anything like this?
I was abused throughout multiple years and occasions when I was a child and growing up by someone that I still share a home with. this someone also suffered experiences of abuse but by strangers and other people in their life much later after what they did to me.
it seems they have forgotten or denied the fact they abused me, because they're so easy to open up about their abuse experiences with me and this always baffles and conflicts me. I show them empathy and listen, and they have no idea of what my true feelings are. but i could never, ever address it, I don't know how much worse it would be to share a home with them if the topic is revived.
I just, hate it and it pains me. their acts have put me through so much suffering and distrust, exploitation and addiction, fear and insecurity, made me genuinely homophobic, I just recently also deducted that their actions must've caused my bed wetting at 7 years old. so now can I truly ever forgive them, should I? I feel like I act like I have, but deep deep down, I just have come to hate them.
does anyone else go through anything like this?
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