gayprince.exe

gayprince.exe

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Mar 20, 2018
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I often say I stick around bc my baby brother would be absolutely broken if I killed myself. I'm basically suffering so he can be happy but I think I hit my limit. I want to dump my boyfriend and run off to a quiet place where I can die peacefully. I want to keep my brother happy but I don't know if I can keep going. It's tiresome and I feel like my life is just my ass getting kicked no matter how hard I try to go on with my life. It's aways one thing or another.
 
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FakeNews

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Apr 30, 2018
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imho, being a martyr is the biggest waste of a sentient life.
 
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typx

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May 4, 2018
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Unfortunately you can't run off to somewhere quiet and die peacefully. Doesn't work like that. Sucks, I know.
 
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MiserableBastard1995

MiserableBastard1995

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Mar 17, 2018
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I understand how you feel. Same'ere, my death will likely destroy my immediate family. But I'm worn out. Drained. Spent. Burnt out, whatever. Really sorry you have to feel this way.
 
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Mari

Mari

Left forum, time's up
May 10, 2018
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Unfortunately you can't run off to somewhere quiet and die peacefully. Doesn't work like that. Sucks, I know.
I don't see why not. If you take care of the means, call it a solitude vacation, rent a little cottage and do your thing, that would exactly be running off and dying peacefully.
 
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Strumgewehr

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Jun 7, 2018
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May be you can move somewhere else for a few years and the CTB
 
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RainAndSadness

RainAndSadness

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Jun 12, 2018
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I'm in a similar situation. I'm living with my mom and my brother died like 8 year ago because of a car crash. And I'm the only left child of that divorced family. My plans are to move out before I cbt, I want to die in my own apartment, in my own space. I don't want to do that in my parents house. It's gonna be rough enough but I can't take responsibility for these environmental factors. It's not my fault my brother died years ago or that I live in a broken family. I feel responsible for my girlfriend though, so I'm torn. I don't want to hurt her and I plan to stay alive as long as I have her. She is also the only person that matters in my life.
 
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gayprince.exe

gayprince.exe

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Mar 20, 2018
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Unfortunately you can't run off to somewhere quiet and die peacefully. Doesn't work like that. Sucks, I know.
But he's so smart, innocent and full of good memes. He is the only one in my family who hasn't experienced severed trauma. I want to keep it that way. I love him. He has yet to realize how much life sucks. However, I do see where you're coming from.
 
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gayprince.exe

gayprince.exe

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Mar 20, 2018
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I'm in a similar situation. I'm living with my mom and my brother died like 8 year ago because of a car crash. And I'm the only left child of that divorced family. My plans are to move out before I cbt, I want to die in my own apartment, in my own space. I don't want to do that in my parents house. It's gonna be rough enough but I can't take responsibility for these environmental factors. It's not my fault my brother died years ago or that I live in a broken family. I feel responsible for my girlfriend though, so I'm torn. I don't want to hurt her and I plan to stay alive as long as I have her. She is also the only person that matters in my life.
I also have a boyfriend who dreads the subject of death but to me, family is more important. I love my baby brother more than I love my boyfriend.
 
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