Life was supposed to be different

[copioushopelessness]

I don't think I'm going to make it much longer. I have so many regrets. A lot of it was out of my control though. Life was supposed to be different. It was supposed to get better but everytime I think it can't get worse it does.
If I don't take my own life very soon I think it's going to end anyway. I'm weak, I'm sick, I'm brain damaged. I have no one. I lost my home. I lost everything.
I wouldn't wish what I was put through on my worst enemy, because my enemy has my kids.
I hope there's peace after this. I wanted to live. I wanted something so much more. I've been suffering for many years because of a monster with no empathy. I protected and forgave someone who couldn't do the same for me.
I have no one. Can someone please say goodbye to me? God have mercy on my soul. If God exists. Nature is beautiful but society isn't. To all the good people out there, I see you. I'm sorry life wasn't as easy as it should have been.

 

[EmptyBottle]

What method r u using, if I may ask? (assuming this is a goodbye thread... it could be a thread about wishing to leave, tho idk)

 

[Hollowman]

My life should've been different too, goodbye.

 

[copioushopelessness]

My life should've been different too, goodbye.

I'm sorry

What method r u using, if I may ask? (assuming this is a goodbye thread... it could be a thread about wishing to leave, tho idk)

I threw away what I could've od'd on. Idk how to replace it. I have no rope, anchor points or knowledge of knots. I've been trying ligature but feel pressure in my head. I'm not sure I'll even survive if I don't do it. I'm getting sicker each day. I need a reliable method.