Venting life past age 30

[Ear]

indescribable loneliness, feeling of severely being unwanted, undesired by all. No future, don't see my life past 30s, can't describe how miserable i am feeling

suicide is the easy way out and the pain is only momentary, we all have to die one day, but why must i always think about ending it before i have even begun experiencing life?

i can't socialise, i can't make friends, i'm stuck all day living my life in a cycle, always doing the same things expecting different results

the truth is i am scared of change and i am well aware that even if things do go my way, i will just ruin it, because im severely flawed

here i am now, aging, rotting away in my bedroom, my teeth rotting, about to fall out, my skin aging, my youth gone

why? because i decided to make this home my grave

can't stand this shit life anymore

 

[Sphene]

As someone who's been dealing with illness for most of my life, I just want to say that you're not alone. I've been isolated for many years, and I really relate to what you said about feeling like life ended before it had a chance to begin.

It's awful how lonely life can become for some people. Sending you a hug - I hope you're able to find a bit of relief in your day.

 

[Ear]

As someone who's been dealing with illness for most of my life, I just want to say that you're not alone. I've been isolated for many years, and I really relate to what you said about feeling like life ended before it had a chance to begin.

It's awful how lonely life can become for some people. Sending you a hug - I hope you're able to find a bit of relief in your day.

it certainly did, thanks for reminding me that i am not alone in this

your words have been very kind, much love