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bpd is ruining my life
- Aug 8, 2021
- 70
The longer i live the worse it gets, its just mental pain and exhaustion. I lost all interests in friends and people. I don't have any friends anyway, except of some random strangers on the internet. I live like this since so long now, its just too painful thinking about how it was back then and i get suicidal. I don't know any place where i could post this except here. I am suicidal on off but the last days were just too much for me to handle.
I wish i could get out of this despair, get a girlfriend, have a job and be stable. Ive become a hermit but there is no other way for me, i am just too depressed, its impossible to maintain anything because i either push people away or i just dontbhave any interest anymore.
I don't know why I'm even writing this, it wont change anything anyway, i feel pathetic and already dead:(
I wish i could get out of this despair, get a girlfriend, have a job and be stable. Ive become a hermit but there is no other way for me, i am just too depressed, its impossible to maintain anything because i either push people away or i just dontbhave any interest anymore.
I don't know why I'm even writing this, it wont change anything anyway, i feel pathetic and already dead:(