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suicidenow
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- Jul 20, 2024
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I told my parents that I don't believe in God and they didn't respond, nor did they call me when we normally would call at 6pm on a Sunday, as they live far away from me.
They always talk shit about my vegan diet and say its the reason for my depression and Schizoaffective disorder.
Also, a guy told me that I'm not sexy enough to wait 6 months for anything sexual.
He told me that the thought of him doing anything orally with me makes him sick and that no man would love me that way unless they are ugly...
All because I didn't want to have sex with him straight away.
This isn't the first time a guy as made me feel ugly when I don't want to have sex with them.
Sigh, and then my friend from secondary school is having multiple guys that want her.
I bought some SN but my nurse took it from me because when I told my parents, they seemed to care. Now that they don't want to talk to me because I don't believe in a stupid God that would create me with the demon of schizoaffective disorder. My life is already hell, so what's the difference if I end up there in the so called afterlife.
I can't stop crying, I wish someone could just reassure me that I can CTB. I've only overdosed on sleeping pills and it was super-terrifying cause I didn't want to turn into a vegetable.
I don't want to live anymore, but damn, I'm scared of the process of dying.
They always talk shit about my vegan diet and say its the reason for my depression and Schizoaffective disorder.
Also, a guy told me that I'm not sexy enough to wait 6 months for anything sexual.
He told me that the thought of him doing anything orally with me makes him sick and that no man would love me that way unless they are ugly...
All because I didn't want to have sex with him straight away.
This isn't the first time a guy as made me feel ugly when I don't want to have sex with them.
Sigh, and then my friend from secondary school is having multiple guys that want her.
I bought some SN but my nurse took it from me because when I told my parents, they seemed to care. Now that they don't want to talk to me because I don't believe in a stupid God that would create me with the demon of schizoaffective disorder. My life is already hell, so what's the difference if I end up there in the so called afterlife.
I can't stop crying, I wish someone could just reassure me that I can CTB. I've only overdosed on sleeping pills and it was super-terrifying cause I didn't want to turn into a vegetable.
I don't want to live anymore, but damn, I'm scared of the process of dying.