i would add to that life/existence image : brain stroke, homelessness, unbearable pain, lies, scams , cancer , kidney stones, torture, grief, heartbreak , disapointment, unfulfilled desires, embarassment, starvation, thirst, constantly having to work and clean and fix things, problems, depression, accidents ( half face falling off but remaining alive, blindness , disability , paralysis, dementia, working, cleaning, taking out trash, chores, worry ,brainwashing, car accidents, stress, despair, hopelessness, injustice , unfair criticism, framing, libel, infections, parasites, all the work to constantly feed and shelter self, false beliefs implanted in childhood , suffering, diseases, old age, alsheimers, faulty memory , false memory , wrong knowledge etc.
Death / non-existence means no suffering and no pain ever again forever and all problems solved forever for me
i also just think that pain is really many many times worse than humans can remember or imagine. I've seen videos on seegore.com where they slowly cut a man's hands off then the tongue and then gouged out the eyes and left him alive . The pain that man felt was unimaginable but it's possible for any human or other animal at any time. Didn't watch this for some stupid "pleasure" but to learn about reality . If it can happen to another human or animal it can happen to me as the brain is capable of producing such torture.
To me a second of that kind of pain is not worth any supposed pleasure much less days, weeks, months of that kind of pain. imo pain and suffering can be so much worse than anything else can be good or anything that it becomes the only real thing = life and that to me is to be avoided if possible
Human memory is really weak and innacurate. If given a 10 digit phone number a human will forget it in 30 seconds unless the human works extremely hard to try to memorize it and that's just 10 measly bytes wheras a computer can remember trillion to the trillionth power bytes. So how is a human going to really remember how bad that pain was?
DNA based life is based on DNA creatures killing and eating each other. And they say life is so wonderful and that we need to worship it and spread it to other planets. i think life is the worst function in the universe a constantly hungry animal looking to kill other animals to eat , the constant hunger torture the diseases, old age, parasites , pain , suffering etc.